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"𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗶'𝗺 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘆 (𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲). 𝘁𝘄𝗼 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗳𝗳 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱." - 𝗳𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗸 𝗼𝗰𝗲𝗮𝗻

the uber fell to a halt as i was in front of the house i was all to familiar with. i took a breath in and set the letter in the mailbox. he always checked the mail even when it wasn't the day the mailman came by. i stepped back into the uber heading to the airport. i felt tears come to my eyes.

i was running away from the place that was my home. i built a life here just to leave it all behind. i knew i would be back someday, just not now. it wasn't a good fit for me. the car ride passed by slowly. soon enough i was at the airport. i checked into my terminal, had my bags searched and sat on the plane. i cried a lot in the car but i didn't think it would be this much.

i grabbed my phone and went to my photos. i clicked on the picture of the letter i gave joão at his house. it wasn't simple to write and the paper was teared stained. as we took off i felt my mind drift off to joão. he hurt me so much, but i couldn't define the joy he brought me.

i regret not talking to him that night at the game, but i couldn't. i would fall right back into his arms, it's as simple as that. our relationship came down to a pen and piece of paper. i hoped and prayed he would read it. but i couldn't dwell on that, i was going back to the place that was once my home. 

i would not run away anymore. i'd go back to portugal one day. with or without joão. i let my eyes fall and drifted off to paradise.

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THE END, 😭 jk one more chapter left, this is really short because i didn't know if you guys wanted to see ashanti wrote, lowkey cried when i wrote this but whateverrr. more than likely i'll update tmr. but do you guys wanna see what ashanti wrote to joao??