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"𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝗲. 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗶 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝘀, 𝗶 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲." - 𝗯𝗲𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝗳𝘁 𝗯𝗹𝘂𝗲 𝗶𝘃𝘆.

i layed in georgina's guest room. a whole month passed since i got my heart ripped out of my chest. school had started back up and my classes were a pain in the ass. i've cried so many times in the past month and it isn't even over him. it's the little thing that send me into a mental breakdown.

the other day in class i dropped my pencil, and when i got on the bus i cried. i don't even know why. i rolled over and looked at the time. i had 3 hours to kill until i went to a job interview. god i hated those. here's the thing, i wouldn't hate working if the workforce actually cared about there workers.

they send you home with a paycheck you can't even live off of. i pulled out my laptop and searched up plane tickets. as much as i don't want to go back "home" it's the only thing i really can do. the tickets weren't very pricey, and i know i where i could stay.

it isn't the best option to run away from everything i built here. i hope georgina would understand. i wouldn't be fully leaving anyways, just for a month. my teachers already said i could do online classes and it wouldn't effect me graduating. i guess i'm ready to let it all go, to let him go.

apart of me still wanted to be with him. to have our late night talks, to watch him train, and to laugh at how sassy he could be. oh joão what have you done to me. i heard a knock at the door and i put my laptop up. geo walked in carrying ice cream and popcorn.

"𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗸𝗶𝗱𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘀𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗶𝘀!" she said bobbing her shoulders up and down. over the month i e been here me and geo have been binge watching a lot of tv shows and movies. "𝗴𝗲𝗼 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗺𝘆 𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻 𝘀𝗼 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗼𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗲." she giggled jumping on the bed and stealing my warm blanket.

"𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸." i said tugging the blanket. i tugged it to hard and geo rolled off the bed. "𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆-" me and geo erupted into laughter. "𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆, 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗼𝘃𝗶𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘁𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴?" she said. i wanted to watch a romantic film, last time we watched an action film and it was terrible.

"𝘁𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁." i said laughing. "𝗻𝗼 𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶 𝗶'𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘁𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁!" geo said. i knew she would grow to like it just like me. 2 hours later and she wanted to watch the next one but i had that interview. i showered and got dressed. today would be a long day. "𝗿𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗲'𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘁𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁." geo said bitting her lip like bella did in the flim.

"𝗴𝗲𝗼 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻." i said laughing. maybe i shouldn't leave, but apart of me wanted to see what changed in 3 years. i missed the things i was familiar with.

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look at me updating 😭 ANYWAYS i published my neymar book and the updates will be frequent once i finish this. i'm supposed to do the dishes but FUCK THAT, i'm not meant for that 😭 SORRY NO JOÃO!!! but next chapter there will be. i hope you guys had a wonderful day! ilysm 🤍