Draconia Offline vol. 1

38.1. Uncomfortable - Part 1

I'm lying in our bed, thinking about what Liana said and how naïve I was. Everyone around me has changed more than I realised. My naivety is even more mortifying because I'm a telepath. I should have known better. Explored the minds of my friends properly. Was I too focused on Erik that I couldn't see it? Too hooked on his humanity I now lack?

Humans are mostly scared of us because we look totally alien to them but they're scared for the wrong reason. They should be scared because of how differently we think now. We're not monsters but there's nothing human in us left.

I slowly stretch my wings to relieve the soreness. Not even our new huge bed is enough to fit me anymore and the bedroom feels cramped to me. I don't feel claustrophobic only because the windows are big enough to give me a sense of space. I realise how desperately I want out. No, not just out. I long for the sky.

"The bath is ready, hon," Erik returns to the bedroom, already half-naked and a total eye-candy.

"You're the best," I smile at him even though I don't feel like smiling. But I do because he's here and he's the reason I'm able to smile like that at least for him.

I carefully fold my wings and bravely suppress hissing when I try to fold my injured wing as well. I shouldn't be in any danger of reopening the wound now but it still hurts like hell whenever I do any movement. It's really crippling for a Celestial to have a wing injured.

Erik kindly offers his support and for a while we're struggling to push my partly folded wings through the door. The bath is another struggle. While it's big enough for two people and I'm as skinny as it gets, it's impossible to get my wings inside to wash them properly. I have to leave them hanging out which means that I can't even lie down to relax.

"Luvi said our new bath should arrive soon," Erik catches what I'm thinking about while frowning in dissatisfaction and hops in after me. "They ordered the biggest jacuzzi possible which means we'll lose the shower but it should be worth it."

"Sorry, I know you prefer showering," I mumble apologetically. All those adjustments are being made because of me, my servants don't consider Erik's needs at all when it comes to our apartment.

"They'll install the shower tube and everything, we'll just lose the shower stall," he waves his hand, gesturing that he doesn't mind, and pours a bubble bath product into the water.

I change my position and hug him. My wings clumsily fall to the sides over the bath's edge and water splashes onto the ground. I don't want to give the maids more work cleaning after us but I'm just not able to manoeuvre my huge wings in such a small space.

"What is it, Ryuu? Do you feel uncomfortable?" Erik caresses my hair.

I don't say anything and just keep hugging his naked body—his human body that's so different from mine. Regardless of how we originally started, we have an interspecies relationship now. I don't think Erik would be capable to handle it if I changed into any other race so I'm lucky he's okay with my wings. Gosh, he even developed a fetish for them, how lucky I am!

I guess Celestials stayed aesthetically pleasing to humans because humans fail to recognise how different apart from our wings and eyes we really are. I don't think Erik fully realises it either. He's excitedly touching my body that didn't change that much from the outside if I don't count the total loss of body hair (not that I had much of that from the beginning) and still considers me rather human.

Yet, my bones are hollow now. My metabolism is super-fast and every calorie taken transforms into mana. I don't need to use the toilet that often either. My lungs are able to take more oxygen from the air than a trained Himalayan sherpa. My mana is repairing my cells all the time, granting me miraculous longevity. I have an entirely new system in my body, a mana circuit, and nobody knows how it works. There's nothing human in me left. I even stopped thinking like a human.

"Shush, you're still you and that's what I love," Erik feels my emotional state and kisses me in comfort. And I kiss him back.