" It's nice to know after 1 whole year that he's been gone you still go back to him after he hurt you , how fucking stupid " Chandler spat out
I turned around as I saw Paxton's car leaving the lot , then I turned back to face Chandler .
" I .. I .. can explain .. " i shuttered while trying to hold my tears in
" no need to , I finally know the answer to everything " he said in a harsh tone
" Chandler please .." I grabbed his arm very tightly .
" No , fuck you . You're such a bitch and you're really fucking stupid if you still love that guy who hurt you . Why can't you realize that what's good for you is in front of you " he said as more anger started to build up in him
" I-i .. i love you " i finally let all the tears come out
" but you're still in love with Paxton " he said staring at me
I didn't say anything . Cause he was right I am still in love with Paxton , ugh .
" Exactly what I thought , Bye Aniecea. " he said walking away .
later that night :
I couldn't stop thinking of everything that has happened today .
" I'm such a screw up .. " I said as tears flowed down my face
Maybe it's that time to finally just do it . Give up for good right ?
No one will miss me , so I see no point anymore . Fuck love , and everything else .
I walked into my bathroom and closed the door .
I looked in the mirror and cried badly . I couldn't handle this anymore ..
My moms gone , I let go of my first love , I lost Chandler , I'm so alone .
I took a razor blade from my cabinet and stared at it for a while .
I couldn't do it but it'll be quick , plus I'll finally get to see my mom again up there .
I'll be happy up there , with her .
Just before I put the razor blade on my wrist , I heard the door open ..
