After crying for what seems forever
I got a call , I picked it up as fast I can .
It was Paxton's mother ..
Paxton's mom: " Aniecea .. I have some bad news that I think you already know " she said in a quiet tone over the phone
Me: " please don't tell me it's true " I said trying to hold in my tears
Paxton's mom: " i came home , and I called his name he wouldn't come downstairs though so I headed up to his room and that's when i saw it . A lifeless Paxton hanged in his room , he hanged him self Aniecea . I lost my own son " she said crying through the phone
Me: " i - I .. Uh - have to go . " I shuttered
I hung up the phone .
I started punching the wall over and over . I didn't give a fuck if I broke my hand .
I got the blade I cut , on my thighs , arm , hips
I felt so numb I cried all night .
How could Paxton do this
I'm such a screw up , he killed himself over me .
I can't live without the person who I loved for over 3 years .
He was everything to me and now he's dead
now he's fucking dead
