As time flew by over the summer , and the rest of high school .. Everything just kinda fell out of place ..
It's been at least 2 years now since me and Sam got together . I'm happy I'm still with him , senior year and I'm still with him he's gonna be the man I marry once I graduate . I hope ..
Shay's pov :
" Lately he's been hanging with his best friend Miaa " I said to Aniecea as we were walking to lunch .
" they are just friends , he's told you this a million times . Plus you guys have been together for 2 years . I'm pretty sure your the only girl he's gonna ever be with now " she spat out
" don't gotta be getting all rude with me . " I said continuing to walk
Aniecea stopped in the middle of the hallway and turned and looked at me
" well I won't have to be so rude if your ass would stop being so fucking jealous over dumb shit . You literally talk about this dumb bitch Miaa every single day . Like are you fucking stupid or something ? You and Sam been together for 2 damn years and you are still worrying about her ? Get the fuck over it damn . " she said walking away
well someone's on their time of the month
I went and sat at Sam's table , he gave me a little peck on the lips .
" so we still hanging out today ? " I said intwining our hands together
" uh-uh .. Babe I'm sorry . I can't hang today , I'm really busy . " he said taking a bite of his burger
" busy with what ? You've been busy literally all week " I spat out
" damn babe , don't be getting mad . I've been busy repairing my car that's what I've been busy with . " he said turning away
" oh .. Well you could've told me that in the first place " I said as my face was turning a little bit red from embarrassment
" well you should've asked " Sam said laughing
" shut up " I said giggling
After lunch the rest of the day just went by fast
I went home and sat down and did absolutely nothing
I decided just to take a nap , after a while I woke up again . It was 7:00 pm
I decided to call Sam since I wanted to talk to him . I called him at least 3 times , but no answer .
I sighed .. guess I'll just go to his house and see what he's up too .
I went out and walked to his house , went I arrived my heart dropped at what I just saw ..
" S-sam .. " my voice cracked
" Shay .. " Sam said turning to look at me .
" really ? Cause it seems like your over here kissing that hoe " I said trying to hold the tears in
I started walking away ..
Sam followed after me and roughly grabbed onto my arm turning me around
" Shay can we please just fucking talk about this "
" no . Fuck you sam . " I spat out
" I'm sorry .. " he said looking down
" fuck your dumb apologize, you're such a fucking liar . " I said pushing him away from me
" how long has this been going on .. " I said putting my head down ..
" 5 months .. Or so .. " he said scratching the back of his head looking away
" so 2 years didn't mean anything to you ? " I said as a tear rolled down my face
" Shay I'm sorry , okay . " he said trying to hug me
I pushed him though
" say it .. "
" say what ? " he said in confusion
" say it .. " i said with such sadnesses in my eyes looking up at him
Sigh " Shay , I don't love you anymore " he said looking down at his shoes
Tears rolled down my face , I knew this was gonna happen .. I was hurt and mad .
I ran straight to my house and went into the bathroom and locked it . I started looking through my drawers until I found my blade
I took the blade and put it against my wrist
After I was done , I felt so numb . I had cuts on my arms , wrist , thighs , and hips .. So deep that I couldn't feel a thing
I called Aniecea
She answered as soon as I called
" Aniecea .. he cheated on me .. I fucking hate this . Why can't I be good enough for someone ? Why do I always have to get used lied too , betrayed .. I thought I could be happy again but guess what I was wrong . I'm never going to be good enough am I ? I'm worthless .. " I said crying
" WHAT ? This nigga really must want to fucking die . Shit , I'm coming over right now please don't be upset Shay . I'm here for you "
" okay .. And yeah . I know " I said hanging up .
About 20 minutes later Aniecea came in and gave me a huge ass hug
" I'm so sorry .. " Aniecea said hugging me even more tightly
" why can't I be good enough ? " I said as more tears formed in my eyes
" fuck Sam . You deserve better , things will get better I'm here for you . Don't worry best friend " she said not letting go of me
" I cut .. And I feel so broken . He made me happy and now he left me .. " I said crying even more into her shoulder
" you're not broken , alright ? No ones broken . They are just shattered . Please don't cut , I'm not leaving you ever . " she said hugging me
" I love you " i said sniffling
" I love you too Shay . I'll go through this with you " Aniecea said ..
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This chapter was lame af . But yeah ,
