" Stop ! " Shay said running towards me
she sat down next to me taking the razor blade out my hand .
" I can't do this anymore Shay " I said breaking down into tears
" but I need you here Aniecea , you're my best friend . You mean a lot to me down leave me in this cruel world by myself . I love you " she said hugging me tightly .
I hugged her back .
" What wrong Aniecea " she said as her voiced cracked a little .
" everything . Chandler , Paxton , my mom , everything .. " i said looking down at the floor
" I'm so sorry " she said hugging me again
I started to cry harder into her shoulders
" You know I'm always here for you , and I know your moms death hurts you but you have your dad , and your grandma and other family members you could talk to . " she said
" I have no one but you and my grandma , but I barely talk to her . My dad left once mom died and the rest of my family I don't even talk to them " I sniffled a little , while looking back down at the floor
" oh " she said looking at the floor as well
" please don't leave me Shay . I'm lost inside my own mind , I'm gonna end up destroying myself if I don't get help " I said looking up at her with such a gloomy look
" I'm not leaving ever , just don't ever try to do that again . " she said putting her head on my shoulder
" I love you . " I said resting my head on her
" I love you too , you're my best friend . We're in this together " she said looking up and smiling at me
" always . " I said smiling back at her
Next morning :
I woke up , Shay was still asleep .
I sat up , grabbed my phone and checked my messages .
I had 1 message from Chandler ,
C: Hey , um can we talk ?
A: Why , What do you need to talk to me about ?
He took forever to reply back so I went to sleep for a little while .
By the time I woke up it was 11:30
" finally you're up . Lazy ass " Shay said giggling .
I threw a pillow at her , " Shut up " I said laughing .
I checked my phone , still no message . Oh well ..
" well what do you want to do today ? " Shay said sitting next to me
" I'm not sure , maybe go walk around somewhere ? " I said standing up heading towards the bathroom
" sure . " she said smiling
" okay let me just get ready " i said
" okay . " she said
I took a shower , then blow dried my hair .
Me and shay went down stairs to eat breakfast , we came back up after finishing .
I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and then just put a little bit of foundation and mascara . I came out and went into my closet and decided to wear a black hoodie , some blue skinny jeans , and my black vans .
" you ready to go ? " i said looking at Shay
" yeah let's go " she said .
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this chapter was boring and yeah . 😏
