Love For Too Many

Chapter 35

No no no no no no no.

Just no. He gathered my trust and then lost it all. Narcissa fucking Malfoy sitting in our house. Who knows who else was sitting waiting for me throughout the house.

When I apparated away I say smoke and fire out in the woods next to the house. I know someone will help it all grow back. They'll blame it on stupid teenagers doing drugs or something and then slowly rebuild the greenery.

I would think Severus would be out there building it back up. But I don't think I actually know him anymore. Everything I thought I knew was false.

I will still carry his child but he will have no rights to her. She will be mine and mine only. Just like Wendy is mine and mine only.

As I continued to get away from the house apparating, I pulled off his engagement ring. I planned it out perfectly and dropped it in a snowy field where we had once brought Wendy when all the leaves had fallen from the trees. It landed softly in the snow and glistened along with it in the moonlight. I only saw it for a few seconds before I continued on.

I went somewhere no one would ever find me. A place I thought I'd never come back to. A little alley way filled with plants peeking from the cobblestone, a few dumpsters, and a smokers welcome sign.

Me and my non-wizard best friend would come here during the summer and smoke when it was late at night. I was like 15 or 16 and it really fucked us up until he did something stupid and the town gang beat him blue.

But when I was really sad or depressed I'd come here and think. It was like he was still here.

I sat on my ass against the cool brick wall of the WattyWoods Bar and Grill. The one and only smokers friendly bar in all of Greenshawn. I closed my eyes and breathed in the old hazy smoke in the air. It was surprisingly relaxing and I felt as if I opened my eyes Clint would still be sitting there next to me. A cigarette in one hand and a book in the other. Telling stories that seemed so real and magical you'd be surprised he was a muggle.

So I did open my eyes and what sat next to me shocked me completely. A little blonde cat with hazel eyes staring at me. Anyone else would think it was just a street cat, but it looked like an animagus of Clint.

I gave the kitten my hand and it snuggled right up against me. "Hey buddy, you're really cute and I'm sorry but I'm about to trauma dump on you."

The cat actually nodded and then laid his head on my lap. It was like flashbacks from Clint which made me want to cry.

"So I doubt you remember I mean know because you aren't Clint. But I'm going to pretend you are. I dated a boy in highschool named Dane."

I continued talking to this cat who just sat there letting me rant to him as long as he was being pet until I got to recent things.

"And we decided on the name Henley Minerva-Rose Snape. We were both so excited and even Wendy was too. But then Severus had a death eaters meeting. I was just waiting for him to come home when everything went all wrong!"

I proceeded to tell this kitten about the last few hours and about the betrayal and how him looking like Clint really made me feel better and yet worse because I miss my old friend. And all this little kitten did was look at me when I was done, climb up onto my lap, and nuzzle his face into mine. Which made me start to ball my eyes out.

The owner of the pub came out and called dinner and a bunch of strays came running in for dinner including little Clint leaving me all alone once again. So I decided to follow the cats and went into the Pub for some food. Little Henley doesn't really like when I sob my eyes out, she gets hungry.

"Hey! Look who's back after all these years!" The bartender calls.

Me? No one here should still recognize me.

"Yeah you! Y/n!"

I walk up to the bar and there's old Jimmy still bartending after 20 some years.

"Ol' Jimmy what have you been up to?"

"Aye I'm the bartender I should be the one asking questions." He laughs. "Not much but little Sally just had my second grand baby."

"Oh congrats!"

"Yeah what about you?" I let out a small sigh. "That bad?"

"Well I'm expecting my second little girl. But life is very complicated at the moment."

"Oh I see. Well congrats on the little ones. They're the best part of life some days. My grand babies are one of the few things keeping me going everyday. Things will work out for you soon."

I nodded but I thought things had already worked out for me. That backstabber makes me want to sit in a corner and cry for days. But I will not shed one more tear for a man who doesn't deserve it.

Severus no longer deserves it.