Love For Too Many

Chapter 50

"What did you do?" Minerva scolds me. "She didn't even say goodbye! She can't be in emotional distress while pregnant, it's not safe! I checked with her friends and they have zero idea of where she's gone. Severus, if you hurt her-"

"Minerva, if you don't shut up, I'll be on my way."

It's been two days since the meeting and the students and staff are getting weary. My cover is tightening around me as a hard shell and my emotions are already draining. I feel badly for the students, I'm not the best teacher when I'm like this but no one can get in right now. Not even Minerva.

"Why are you being so harsh with me Severus? Even before y/n you were always open with me."

"I am being open, it just doesn't seem that way after these past few months. Y/n left me and had moved on with her life. She sent her resignation letter to Dumbledore in the middle of the night and she fled. I don't know where she is and I'd like to keep it that way. She's an insufferable bitch and I wish I had never gotten her pregnant."

Her face was a mix of confusion and shock as my words cut me deeply. I don't mean it, but I have to sell the fact that I do.

"Take that back." Tears brimmed her eyes.

"No. Minerva, she treated me awfully and I only realized it recently because I haven't seen love in many years."

"You're just a stupid old brute who doesn't understand that she treated you like the missing piece of herself. You were her king! You stupid stupid man!" She beat her fists against my chest I'm the teacher's lounge until she could collect herself.

I steeled my emotions and then left without a word. Emotions wouldn't do me well now. The hallways were dimmer and the paintings turning dustier and more gray. It was like years had past in a matter of hours and my life was here and gone with a blink of an eye.

My scheduled days moved and flowed and before long it was sunset and I had a stack of papers on my desk once again. They were all horrible and of bad handwriting for none of the students could care to put effort in.

I felt the same way.

It was 2am before the stack was down to only a few left. I finished them with a high score of a 87%. Even our best students were lacking motivation. The whole castle seemed to sigh and give up. Y/n's bubbly, charming personality missing from the dynamics.

I settled into a hot burning shower and allowed for the water to burn my skin. It was the only thing that helped me feel my pain. Tears slid from the corners of my eyes and sobs came off my tongue in horrible aching sounds.

The emptiness and grayness I can handle, but the quietness and loneliness was slowly driving my mind into oblivion. Her presence was a blessing in disguise and just her warm eyes was all that was needed to brighten a day.

I climb into bed after my shower and toss and turn for hours before sleep takes over me. It's some of the worst sleep I've ever gotten and only makes me feel worse.

Y/n:

Wendy's been crying for her Daddy while clinging to my shirt. She only just fell asleep from exhaustion leaving me up for a bit of peace and quiet. I'd normally already be on my third or fourth class of wine with a few shots of liquor in between, but instead I just drink water. Baby Henley must feel the shift in emotions because she's been silent since we left. No kicks, no sickness, no cravings, no pain, just silence.

I walk to the one and only window in this place and stare at the night sky. It's a gorgeous deep blue and black with the twinkle of each star. Luna shining down on me with a smile reminding me everything will be alright in the end. But is that even true anymore? That's my question to the universe.

"Severus, if you can hear me some way. I love you. Take care of my home, take care of yourself, and take care of Minerva. I have our babies safe and sound here." I say to the moon, just in case, he's looking at her too.

Henley kicked a little and I smiled down at her. "I love you too little trouble maker. Only a few more months until I get to meet you."

I make my way back to the crashed Wendy on the couch and scoop her up carefully. I take her to my bed and tuck her in. There's zero chance she's sleeping by herself right now. The world is too dangerous.

"Goodnight bug, sleep tight, and know that Daddy and I will always love you." I whisper against her hair. Then I press a soft kiss against her head.

My precious angel.

A/n: Sorry for the shorter chapter, it's getting ready for the next one. Buckle up!