Love For Too Many

Chapter 38

I didn't look up from his chest the whole way back to his quarters. I knew I must be getting really weird looks. But when we finally made it to the doorway of his quarters I looked up at his face. Memorized every line and every detail.

Very soon I was gently laid on his bed before he came and sat beside me.

"Come here love," he patted his chest so I came and curled up with my head on his chest. "You've had a very stressful last two days and a stressful life in general. I want to be here for you forever but that means we have to talk and communicate when you're feeling like this." I close my eyes and snuggle into him more. I've missed the scent of him coating my senses.

"I love you so much it hurts." I whisper, "I was expecting to see you and only you. And when the door opened and I see the wife of a death eater and a member of Voldemort's trust, it doesn't look good. I don't trust men. I haven't trusted men in a long time. But I trusted you and you did that. It was like my soul shattered to the smallest pieces. If Wendy had been with me I would've killed you for putting my baby at risk. I would've done it without a second thought."

He inhaled deeply and then lets it out. "I know you would've love. I know and I love that about you. I know you'll keep our girls safe from anything with or without me."

I sit up and pull away from him, looking him dead in the eyes. "What do you mean by that? Severus. Did the dark lord say something to make you fear for your life?"

"I just have this feeling... when the dark lord has his full strength back and we go to war, he will end my life. I have been a double agent for far too long and if he finds out I'm dead. Gone for."

Fear clung to me as tears fell from my eyes again. "No. No. We'll move, change jobs, we'll go to America. Anything to keep you alive!" I screamed at him as panic set in. "No no no no! Please don't leave me Severus! I might not trust you completely but I love you with everything I can muster. Please-" my last words cut off by an excruciating painful sounding sob.

He pulls me in even closer not allowing for any space in between us. He carefully rubbed my back and tried to soothe me.

Once I had finally calmed down Severus sent a message to Minerva asking her to pick Wendy up from daycare and bring her down and then he got up and tucked me into bed.

A few minutes later a delicious smell wafted through the house. It was a comforting smell of spices and cooked chicken with a garlic and paprika mixture hitting the nose strongly. He came back into the room long enough to scoop me out of the bed and bring me to the dining room.

Once I was seated at the table he presented a dish of season cooked chicken with a side of steamed and seasoned vegetables. Then he left again.

My eyes followed him as I began eating slowly. He had gone back into our bedroom for something. When he emerged he was holding a hair brush and a few hair ties. He came closer and I gave him a quizzical brow. He just smiled and pulled a chair up behind me.

He slowly began brushing my hair out as I ate. He was so gentle it made me feel comfortable and loved. Each strand he added into the mix pulled just slightly. When he finished he kissed the top of my head and went to get a plate of food for himself.

"Thank you Sev. I appreciate the food and you doing my hair." He returned and kissed my head again.

"Shhh eat up and relax." He went and sat across from me until we both finished eating. When I insisted on doing the dishes he just said, "You can tomorrow if you really want to, but tonight we're going to cuddle you up in bed and go to sleep."

"Okay Sev." I said with a slight smile. He set the dishes in the sink and then told me no when I tried to get up. He leaned down and scooped me up. Sev spun around in a circle making me giggle before taking us back to our room.

With a kiss on my lips he set me down on the bed. He wouldn't let me do anything as he slowly almost seductively pulled my clothes off one by one.

"Which pajamas do you want?" He asked while facing my closet leaving me completely naked on my bed.

"What if i said you?"

He smirked, I could tell by his voice, "Maybe later love. You need sleep tonight. I don't know where you went last night so I'm going to make sure you get sleep tonight." He pulls out a satin top and bottom pair and brought it back to me.

"Arms up." I laugh

"It feels like I'm Wendy's age again." I laugh again making him laugh.

"I can always treat you like you're Wendy's age but that means we can't have any fun." He says with a devilish smirk.

I just giggle at him. He finished getting me dressed and ticks me into bed. "I'll put Wendy to bed whenever Minerva brings her, you sleep. I can sleep on the cou-"

"You'll sleep in here with me and cuddle me whether I'm asleep already or not."

"Okay well then you sleep, I'll see you soon. I love you." We kiss and be leaves the room and lets me sleep.