Love For Too Many

Chapter 52

I oblivate myself. Or as close as I dare go. I remove her and Wendy from every memory I have since she started working her, and hid them away in vials.

My memory was just a bunch of gaps and void of emotions because all of the good emotions were tied to her.

Slowly, as I sit there, the energy drains from me and all my happiness is gone. I have no reason to be happy. I'm a double agent who is also a hated potions Professor.

I look to the clock and class is going to be starting soon. I get up, brush the nonexistent dust off my robes, make sure all the buttons on my robes are put together, and then leave my room.

The kids in the hallways don't shrink away when they see me. It's a weird sensation. Somewhere deep in the darkness of my brain I can feel the answer as to why. I can remember them slowly becoming less frightened of me just not why.

I get to my class and the lesson begins. My students aren't afraid to answer questions like they used to be. They just aren't motivated. That's an easy fix. Some threats to their grades and their house points and they're up and moving once more.

A few of the kids look at me like the monster I am by the end of class but most just look at me with sympathy.

When the bell rings and all the students leave, I sit at my desk to grade papers. I don't even have time to finish the first one before Minerva rudely interrupts.

"Okay, I know you know where she is so fess up! Where's Y/n?"

"Who?"

"I'm not in the mood for games Severus."

"Minerva, you're annoying but I wouldn't lie to you." I roll my eyes and turn back to my papers.

"Y/n, your fiancé."

"I don't... have a fiancé. Are you ill?"

"This is serious Severus! Stop playing games."

"I don't know who that is!"

"But you must." She stared at me in horror as the dots started connecting. "I can't believe you Severus! She has better occulmency than you but you still oblivate yourself? Do you even remember her child? Wendy? You got her pregnant Severus. You're engaged to the finest witch I've met in a long time. You're planning a life with her and you stupid dumb idiot can't even remember her."

"I must have done it for a good reason and now you've messed the whole thing up! I'm not supposed to remember for a reason!"

"You are infuriating! You have amazing occulmency and so does she, there's no need."

Frustration boils in me. "I don't remember her Minerva, you lecturing me isn't going to make me remember."

"What about after the war? How are you going to protect her if you don't know her?"

"I'm not a good protector nor a good person to be with. You know this and so must she. I'm over this conversation, see yourself out Minerva." The edge to my voice was hard and razor sharp as the irritation got under my skin.

She huffed and turned on her heel obviously furious at me.

What was so special about this woman anyway? It's beneficial to both of us for me to not remember.

Minerva:

I beelined right to Dumbledore's office. Severus is ruining himself and without Y/n, I need help.

"ALBUS!" I yell out when his office door opened.

"What Minerva?"

"We need to talk." His facial reaction hardened at the worry in my face and he grabbed my arm and directed me down and out of Hogwarts. We walked outside and the cool early spring air blew back my thinner strands of hair that refuse to be pulled back.

"What's wrong Minerva?" He asks with worry.

"I'm very worried for Severus, he oblivated his memory of Y/n from his mind! It's so unlike him. Something has to be going on."

"The war is coming Minerva. Sooner or later and I doubt I'll be here for it. You must take care of our students and our staff."

"It's coming." I repeat as it processes. "We'll train the students, we'll prepare. How close do you think your end is?"

"The death eaters are planning. I've seen the signs before. I'll be dead before the end of the school year." My hand covers my mouth as a shock wave of sadness washes over me. I'm going to lose one of my closest friends in a very short time and there's nothing I can do.

So the only thing to do is focus on the things I can fix. "Oh Albus, I'm so sorry. You've been an amazing friend and headmaster. We've taught a many generation of fine witches and wizards together and I'll always be grateful for you."

"I feel the same to you dear friend. Watch Severus for me, he'll need a friend in these upcoming months. He'll get sadder and lonelier without a reason to his brain. Y/n was his happy drug and now he's going to go through withdrawal even without the memory of her."

"So he's going to torture himself and the students with his misery. I'll be there for him, I always am and always will be."

"Thank you, take care of yourself Minerva." He says right as we get back to the school from our walk.

"Tell yourself that you old man." I snicker at him and he rolls his eyes.

"Goodnight Minerva, tell Poppy I say hi."

"Will do, goodnight Albus."