Alleviate |billie eilish|

24.

A/n:
italic + bold is flashbacks

Billie's pov--->

i stand infront of everyone thinking of what to say.

"Hello, uhm. That video was so embarrasing, jesus." I tilt the mic up and put my hands begind my back being a little nervous. But i continue.

"It's really weird to be woman of the year at 17. that's like the first thing i can say. THe second thing i wanna say is, yall's speeches were long as fuckk" I drag out the u. "Oh my god. Fuck! long as hell." I try not to laugh.

"I'm sorry, i'm sorry they've been beautiful, honsetly. Nikki's speech was the most beautiful thing ive heard. She lookd fine as hell too, as always. But not as fine as my amazing girlfriend" I smile looking out to max. some people calpped and there was some 'oooo's.

"what taylor said earlier was beautiful, what Alicia said, i love Alicia. Everybody already left who's spoken all ready so it's okay." I put my hands on the mic again.

"All i wanna say is last year" I laugh a little thinkign about it. "Ariana Grande got the award that i'm getting right now a year ago, and she gave a speech that i thought was the most touching thing i'd ever seen"

"And like two weeks ago i realized that's the award im getting and that really freaked me out and it still is." I pause for a moment taking a breath.

"i wanna thank all the women in the past, who have been the reason that i can be the way i am and do what i want, and paved the way for me and an entire genertaion of young women who in the past have done what they weren't supposed to do, has made my life a lot easier and made me able to do what i want and be what i want, so thank you to those women in the past, thank you"

some people clap in the background.

"I wanna thank my mom, who's right there, i love you. and my dad ad my big brother, Finneas is also right there. I wanna thank the owmen on my team, Chelsea, Laura, Michelllle, where she's at. Alex Baker, my PR, Sarah Bullwinkle, Jodie, Rebecca, Hannah, Everybody on my tour team, thank you, i love you. That mohawk is fire!"

"i also want to thank my beautiful girlfriend who's helped me through so much, and i couldn't thank her enough"

"Thank you, thank you, billboard, thank you everybody, i love you"

I look around at everyone while they clap. I give them all a smile walking down to hit with max, Finneas, mom, and dad.

"it was beautiful" mom complemented me.

"Thanks, i didn't even know what i was saying half the time" We all laughed.

"So billie" Finneas eyed me. "You and max" I totally forgot i didn't tell them.

"Yup" I grab max's hand.

"congrats" Dad told us.

we talked for a while until i had to go talk to billboard again about, my Rapid rise to fame, and my family's support.

Before we came here they asked me advice i recevied from spice girls.

. . .

When we got home it was already late.

"Billie it was amazing" max told me. "I didn't realize how famous you are" She takes off the button up she wore.

"I didn't think i would be this famous either" I laugh changing out of my clothes.

"So now what" I rasie my eyebrow a little. "Like what do you do now?"

"I'll make more music, do interviews, Make music videos"

"what about tour" She plays with the sheet on the bed. I've been dreading to answer that.

"I don't really know"

"Nothing's going to change when you go on tour right?"

"of course my love" I crawl in bed beside her. I kiss her cheek then play with her hair.

"can we watch the office" She asks me curiously.

"You don't have to ask me that" I grab the remote putting it on.

We watch it for a few but then max gets up.

Max's pov--->

I took a deep breath looking back at billie. Something I've always wanted to do for the most part.

"I think I want to move into moms house" She sits up looking at me.

"Are you sure?"

"Well yeah. I've basically been living here with you but I still want to keep the house" I look down at my rings.

"That's alright, when do you want to do it"

"I want to do it tomorrow" I bit my lip.

"Max why are you crying" I didn't realize I even was.

"Why are you always so supportive with everything i do?" She scoots closer to me rubbing my back.

"Why wouldn't I be supportive? If you want to do something i am of course I'm going to agree with it. Unless it's something so stupid" She laughs a little. "But my point is, moving into your parents house isn't something stupid. You grew up there i get it"

"I want to move in it untill I turn 18" I chew the inside of my cheek. Soon I taste blood from it.

She stayed silent.

"Hey bil" finneas knocked on the door.

"Try to get some sleep okay?" She kissed my forehead getting up and going to finneas.

. . .

I look around the house in silence. I walk to moms room once again, everything is boxed.

"Aurora" I yell. She walks down looking at me.

"Max" she comes down not sitting on the couch. I'm throwing that out.

"We didn't have a official talk" I look up at her. I walk to the table.

She pointed to a chair in front of her for me to sit. Cautiously I walked to the chair and sat.

"Max are you okay?" Aurora waves her hand in front of me. I nod swallowing the saliva that built up.

I watch as aurora places her elbows on the table setting her head on it.

"I want to be a better mother for you. Since you've been gone for a couple weeks I've been going to a rehabilitation center, and taken time away from your father" She began. I set my elbows on the table then placed my head in my hands to look at her.

"Continue" Aurora spoke.

"Continue" I raise my hand pointing at her.

"so how's your life going" She looked down thinking about it.

"It has been crazy" She laughs a little bit. I stay in silence as she talks. "I got out of jail. Wait did mom ever tell you?"

"she didn't tell me i figured it out" She nods.

"Well I got a job at a doughnut shop, i think it's close to here. I found someone too, he's amazing" Her smile is soft. Like how I remembered it.

Her eyes shined in the room light.

"What's making you so happy" I laugh with her.

"I got into class with my friend. He's so cute!" Aurora jumped on the bed with me.

"What's his name" I raised a brow. She held the smile she had and shook her head.

"Cameron"

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