Curious Adventurer

Multiple Emotions

"Now go back down, I don't want your mom to think I killed you too." Pennie tells the boy still lying down on the floor, from his fall, he fell on his back, Pennie pushed his hand away from the clothing, that made his back hurt so bad. Probably too shocked from the knowledge of how his friend got murdered.

Pennie helped him got up, he did stand up, he tried, but Pennie did most. The two went down the stairs, Johnny, luckily for Pennie, looked the same as he was, traumatized. He still couldn't talk, so Pennie was winning, in her head.

"If you tell anyone, your whole family will get buried." In the middle of the stairs, no one could hear, Pennie whispers to Johnny's ear. Johnny took a deep breathe, and just looked at her, continuing his walk down the stairs, trying to look like he wasn't scared of her, Pennie knew he was.

Johnny did eat this time, Mrs. Leyton was so delighted to find out about it, so clueless of what just happened to her son. Mrs. Leyton again cooked Johnny's favorite food. He liked, sandwiches, inside of it are eggs, mayonnaise, ham, and some vegetables. That's it. Mrs. Leyton was happy to always cook for her child. Trying to act normal, her child reciprocates.

Pennie was currently doing well, there is no way she would get caught now. She has an immense amount of trust in Dr. Richardson, thinking that he did hide the body well enough, she doesn't know how, but seeing how he is a doctor he might have found some way to make better decision that Pennie.

"Ready for school, Johnny? Oh, that's right. You're not going." Pennie teases Johnny, she did succeed getting on his nerves more. Pennie got out, and went down the stairs.

And suddenly, she realized, she had changed her emotions again. Changing from calm, to something and something, to possibly changing to something else later. She was scared of it, how it changes so fast, even without realizing it.

She just keeps on wondering how this happens. Why can't she keep one emotion, and feel it for the rest of the day? Why does she sometimes wake up calm and go to bed guilty? Why do things keep happening, making her change her emotions? Why has she become like this?

Pennie going to school today did not help. Everyone kept asking her if she was alright. She was not, not now. But maybe because of her lack of sleep, she gets more irritated, and faster than usual. After school, she went home. And after going home she had dinner and waited for the night to come. And when the night came, she went back to Dr. Richardson. Going to the building, and through the forest of her crimes.

"Hello, Pennie." The man appeared, and greeted.

"Why can't I keep one emotion?" Pennie ignores the man's greeting, and asks her question.

"Well, it seems like the part where I said 'Hello, Pennie.' flew to nowhere." Sarcasm filled sentences, Dr. Richardson, that's him today. "Well, to answer that, I don't know."

"But-" Pennie tried telling how she felt, but was cut off.

"Get a therapist." Cutting the girl off, Dr. Richardson delivers his direct answer. This made Pennie stop talking about her emotions, and think of something else to ask.

"Did you hide Abigail?" Pennie asks, even though she does not worry, she still makes sure of it.

"You think?" Not facing her, not even seeming like he cared a single bit, just wanting to say his sarcastic sentences, Dr. Richardson asks. Pennie scoffs as the man then leaves the room.

"You hate me, don't you?" Dr. Richardson asks Pennie before she could even fully exit the room.
"But you can't. You just blame yourself, because you did it."

Pennie couldn't answer because he was right. She could blame him, being the reason that she had done all her crimes. But still, she did the crimes, he only pushed her, but he never really did anything to harm the people she had hurt. Dr. Richardson can't be hated, for he was the only one that she could tell her actions to. He also was a little reminder that she had a reason for her actions, that's why she can't get away.

She leaves the room again, not answering Dr. Richardson, not continuing the talk. But she had nothing to do for the whole night but sleep, which she wasn't feeling like doing, so she stayed for awhile at the building. Exploring the little details of a dirty, abandoned building, while exploring her emotions, why she felt one of each. How she is doing. And how she will be doing. She found most comfort in the stairs. In the middle of it, she sat. Thinking. Still thinking about it all. Was she wrong for killing them? Or was she doing right? Was she in the good? Or was she in the mad? Was killing Abigail that necessary? If she got caught today, will it make Abigail's death useless? Is she a bad friend for threatening her friend? And was she a bad person for not wanting to be somewhere and be something that she doesn't want? What is she now?

Pennie started shaking slightly just thinking of it. Thinking of all of it. Thinking can have its consequences. Knowing more than others do can be a good thing, but sometimes, it can be a bad thing.