Even my best attempts to fall asleep did not work on me. I have too many things inside my mind that keeps on making me awake. All the chosen ones with me are still asleep even though it is obviously already morning. Wala namang kaso iyon dahil tanghali pa kami aalis. Siguro ay alas siyete pa lamang at bumabawi sila ng tulog. Hindi ko naman sila nakikitang kumakain ng umagahan noong mga nakaraang araw kaya hindi ko na dapat pa iyong problemahin.
To heave a deep sigh is what I did as soon as I wake up and after looking at them. Hindi naman sila mga mukhang matatapang na tao kapag tulog lalo na si Amaya. She just looks like an innocent girl the way she sleeps. After looking at them, I decided to close my eyes again. Baka ngayon eh makatulog na nga ako. It is going good for me. Medyo inaantok na ako ngunit nakarinig ako ng mahinang kaluskos at yabag. I did not even need to look who he is, I know that is how Amugay walks.
"I know you're awake. You did not sleep. Do you want coffee?"
Napamulat na ako at napaayos ng pagkakaupo sa higaan ko. Agad akong tumingin kay Amugay na ngayon ay dala-dala ang electric kettle na kinuha ko sa store noong sunduin nila ako ni Amaya.
"I'll make my own."
"No, I'll make one for you." he insisted.
Nangunot na lang naman ang noo ko nang hindi na niya hinintay pa ang magiging sagot ko at agad nang gumawa ng kape. Hindi ko naman alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa o maguluhan sa inaasal niya. I've imagined this scenario inside my head for too long, for a thousand times, and it is weird when you're already on that reality. The man I adore telling me he will make me a cup of coffee was just a dream and now, I am living in that dream... for a while. I know he is not my man. He belongs to another woman.
Nagkasya na lang ako sa pagtingin sa kaniya. I know he knows I am looking at his every move, but it does not matter to him. Hindi naman nagtagal ay natapos na niyang gawin ang kape. He is about to walk towards me with the coffee, but I started to smile. Umayos na ako ng pagkakatayo at sinalubong siya para kunin ang kape. Ngumiti naman siya pabalik sa akin. Instead of going back to my bed, I walked directly to Amaya's parallel body. Tinanggal ko ang nakatabon sa mukha nito at agad na tiningnan iyon muli. Last night, it is weird. The pulling energy it has when Amaya just confirmed it is still alive.
"Maganda bang magkape habang nakatitig sa bangkay?" si Amugay na sumunod pala sa akin habang dala rin ang kape niya. "Is this your new way of starting your morning?"
I smiled, but I never said another thing nor responded. He let me be silent and stood there with me for minutes before he broke the silence himself.
"I'm sorry." he said. Kaagad kong ikinalingon iyon sa kaniya lalo na nang makita kong para bang ang bigat-bigat ng mga salitang bibitawan niya. Even his sigh is heavy. I looked at his eyes and I am starting to not like this. "I am apologizing for coming into your life just to break your heart."
Kakaibang kabog agad sa dibdib ko ang namayani. I cannot even hold my coffee right. Muntikan ko pa iyong mabitawan. Mabuti na lamang at sinalo niya iyon ngunit matamlay ang kaniyang ngiti.
"Why...are you apologizing for a love you are not responsible to reciprocate?"
BINABASA MO ANG
Paradise of Corpses (Trinity Series 3)
FantasyLilac Serpentine, the chosen one of Ulilang Kaluluwa is once again trapped into another confusion. This time, into a plague with the worst person she knows by her side. A person that once was the reason she locked herself from the hands of anyone...
