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His face is turned the other way. I assume he's blushing.. SO CUTEE.

I have to see so I cup his face with my hands and pull him closer to inspect his reaction. He is blushing more as he realizes that we are so close. I quickly release him as the atmosphere is changing..

Y/N:"Ehm.. We should go! Would not wanna be late."

Gosh what was I thinking?! I really act without thinking sometimes.

He only nods. As usual.

I will just tell him about my idea later on this mission.

In the evening

We have now been wandering for quite a while but not nearly as much as we should. Like always none of us said anything. Well maybe I tried to break the silence a few times. Without luck that is.

Nearly missing a branch as I am lost in thought I quickly gather myself again.

"I believe we should rest."

"No no I am not tired! I was just..thinking. Yeah thinking."

He is stubborn as always so there is no way he would believe me. I sigh and we drop to the ground.

Itachi:"It smells like rain. We should seek shelter in a cave if we find one."

He is right. It does smell like metal. Like blood when you cut your finger and suck it to make it stop bleeding. Exactly that feeling.

Itachi Pov

We eventually find a cave. It is small but we are not carrying too much.

We sit down. We use our stuff as pillows. I guess it is better than laying on the ground.

Back to what I was thinking about before.. I should not have been so close to Y/N. She will only get hurt because of me. If she did not already.

I was foolish enough to believe Danzos plan would not take place because of her being a sort of alliance. So foolish of me. I actually imagined my whole life...with my family.

Before long it does start to rain. I guess she is asleep since her breathing is calm. I do not look at her. I am too afraid that I will not be able to part ways soon.

Out of fear I close my eyes to then experience the same scene over and over again..

There is something new- Y/Ns horror filled face after seeing me use my Susanoo. After her hearing about how I joined the Akatsuki. How she cared about Sasuke before coming here. This is all my imagination. I did not see these scenes. I did not experience them.

Why?

Why am I imagining her just now? Why do I care what she thought or felt after everything?

Opening my eyes so fast even the moonlight is hurting them I look at her worry free face.

So peacefully sleeping.. I cannot help but stare. Caressing strand of her hair I feel helpless. I am afraid. Afraid of parting ways.

I retreat my hand and stare at the once again full moon... exactly like that night. I guess looking at the moon will not be the same.

Why do we exist if all we do is suffer? Why?

I can control my sobbing but not the tears wandering down my cheeks.

Thinking about how I miss being called nii-San by Sasuke, helping mom shop, being praised by dad and going on missions with Shisui I don't notice how Y/Ns eyes open and her e/c orbs stare at my defenseless face.

"Itachi..." she whispers but I hear her clearly since the only thing making a sound is the wind and the drops of rain.

I hurry to wash away my tears and look away. She takes my hand and holds it close to her. As if hugging me by this action.

"Please talk to me. Tell me everything. Everything you miss. Everything you regret. Or keep quiet. I don't care as long as the pain from your chest is gone even for a bit."

I don't know how to react. This world has been meaningless for me except for the emotions I felt at home but things are changing. They changed.

She raises her hand and places it on my ear. Basically cupping it. I flinch a bit. She's cold. I place my hand on hers as she wipes away the tears that I missed.

After the long eye contact I don't know what to do. It's been so long since I've felt this kind of warmth. Her cold hands don't compare to how grateful she makes me.

Slowly resting my head on her shoulder I feel her head on mine. This action is so..idiotic that I feel home. I feel safe. I feel like I mean something to someone. The first time I forget about everything and only think about the present...

We both don't fall asleep just sit there. For minutes on end enjoying the view and sound of the rain. Though I rather think about her raising heartbeat.

She pulls away making us stare into eachothers eyes once again. Y/N is smiling softly making me mimic her action. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have-"

"Itachi..Don't think this is something you should feel sorry for especially when I also needed that."

I was taken aback by her sudden interruption as I was only thinking about how I should continue my own sentences.

Thinking about everything two or more times is a habit of mine but I just cannot do that about the things she says.

"...we'll have a long day tomorrow you should rest."

Y/N:"you too but I have been wondering about something. Wouldn't it just be easier-"

"If we act like we're a couple in hq. Yes I have also thought about this and wanted to bring it up."

She nods. And let's out a heavy breath as if a weight has been lifted off of her back. As i thought it really is hard to talk about these stuff.

"So it's settled."

I nod back as I lean back and bury my head in the collar of the coat.

I've never written so much of Itachis pov. I apologize if he seems too flustered or anything. I'm basing his feelings off of the small clips we got of him and Izumi. Though he was a kid then I do believe he hasn't aged in romantic experience. He wasn't interested in those things before right?

ANYWAYS THX FOR READING!

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