Not wanting to commit suicide but haveing no desire to live is one of the worst things you can go threw
You don't really enjoy doing anything
You want friends but are to depressed to do anything with them and when they eventually leave it feels like all you fault
You don't want help because excepting that makes it real and your in denial
You wake up every day disappointed and go to sleep hopeing to not feel that disappointment the next morning
It's an endless circle of sadness that can only be cured bye confronting you fears and committing suicide
