Unexpected love - Mattheo Riddle

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I wake up, my head is pounding and I feel numb. I can't stop thinking about if this was really my fault.
Maybe he's just like other boys and not the special boy his father told me about, not the special boy I thought he was.

I look over to my nightstand and I see the pills and the remaining vodka, fuck this.
I grab the bag and take the last three pills without hesitation.
I have been through worse, I just never lost someone who I could share every detail of my life with.

I chug the rest of the bottle and I sit up against the headboard.
"Ev?" I hear my brothers voice at the door
"Not right now Draco." I mumble, he cannot see me like this, he'd kill me after he kills Mattheo.
"I'm coming in." He says before opening the door.
"Are you alright?" He asks
"I'm totally fine." I say sarcastically as I lift up my knees to my chest and I hide my face.
"I'm being serious Evelyn." He says
"So am I, I am great!" I say without any emotion.
The pills are kicking in, it is dark outside and as I look through the window I see the stars, reminding me of him.
"What are you on?" He asks
"I took a shit load of pills." I admit
"Opioids?" He asks "how many?"
"Oh you know, like two, maybe six." I answer as I look at him.
"Pills aren't the answer!" He raises his voice
"What is the answer? You tell me Draco. What the fuck is the answer?!" I shout back
"Theodore told me about the vodka." He says, not answering my question "but not about the pills."
"Mattheo got these for me back in London." I tell him
"I swear to god I will kill that bastard." Draco says as he comes closer to me.
"I am gonna-
"For Merlin's sake." He says as he takes my hand and leads me to the toilet.

I throw up as Draco looks away, he's probably disgusted but who cares.
"I'm sorry." I apologize as he hands me a glass of water.
"It is not your fault." He says as he helps me back to my bed.
"I have to go, I told Pansy to watch you." He says as he walks towards the door.
"No please, not her." I tell him
"Why not?" He asks
"She won't stop talking about him, I know her." I answer
"I am not leaving you alone." He tells me coldly.
"Why not, I am out of booze and pills."I tell him, he nodds annoyed as he leaves the room.
"Don't do anything dumb." He sighs before leaving.
"Love you too." I mumble after he left.

I take out my pack of cigarettes and I start smoking them, one after another until I have none left. My room probably smells like smoke, alcohol and throw up but I don't care.

I sit on my bed, staring through the window, what am I supposed to do now?
Act like I'm fine?
Just not go to class?
Forget about him?
I don't know.

"Go away!" I shout as I hear more knock on the door.
Why the fuck do people keep coming.
"It is Hermione, Ron and Harry." A girls voice says.
"Can we do this another time? Maybe in like three months?" I question.
"We're coming in." Harry says as he opens the door, for fucks sake.
"What didn't you understand?!" I shout before looking up at them.
"It smells terrible in here." Hermione says as she holds her nose shut:
"What happened?" Ron asks
"Mattheo kissed some cunt." I say
"I am incredibly sorry but we need your help." Hermione says
"With what?" I ask
"George." Ron says as he looks up
"What do you mean?" I ask
"He doesn't want to talk to anyone, I haven't seen him in three days or something like that." Ron says
"I don't want to talk to anyone either but no one seems to understand that." I say annoyed as I sit up.
"A boy you liked kissed another girl, his twin brother died." Harry says
"He is not just some boy Harry, I love him." I tell him "besides I lost my friend too."
"You have to help us!" Ron basically shouts
"Why? What makes you think he will talk to me?" I question the three.
"Because you lost many more people than all of us together." Harry says
"I shall talk to him, whenever I feel like it. I'm sorry but I just can't right now." I tell them "can you guys please leave me alone?" I ask
"Sure, take your time." Hermione says as she walks towards the door and she opens it.
"Not too much time though." Harry says
"Piss off Harry." Hermione says as she slaps him on his arm.
They leave and I'm alone again.