baby grey

trust is earned

Lily's pov

Those last words before she went into her room, that hurt, that ended it, she might not have wanted to but it did, I toss the key she gave me at her door and leave out of the front slamming it behind me, not looking back. As I get home I can see everyone parting, I will not be participating in that whatsoever. I still have tears running down my face and honestly I don't care if people know, they can know, It over now anyway. She did this to herself. I walk upstairs automatically going into my room, doesn't take long for me to fall asleep.

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"Morning," I say as I come down the stairs.
"Hello, baby grey," they all say.
  " have I not grown out of that, I mean look at me, I'm not 16 anymore," I say going to grab my keys.
"Where you going," amelia asks.
"Work," I reply.
"It's our day off," she say looking confused.
"No its not, that was yesterday, your running late," I tell them, before going to my car.

"Lily, what you doing after work," arizona says.
"Nothing, my girlfriend slept with someone else so thats over," I say not actually realising what I said.
"Girlfriend," arizona says shocked.
"What no," I say quickly.
"You said girlfriend, I'm proud of you," she says, looking up at me, I'm 5'9 so she has quite a way to look up.
"Can you not tell anyone, I'm not exactly out to well now anyone but you," I say quietly.
"What are you not out as," she asks. I haven't really thought about it I still like men so I'm guessing bi maybe, probably.
"Bi, I guess I haven't really thought of it," I wisper as people are walking around.
"Hey what you two on about," amelia asks putting her arm around my shoulder.
"Nothing really, just telling arizona about my friend," I say quietly.
"Oh is this the mystery boyfriend I think you have,"she says.
"Right, her boyfriend, he sounded great by the way, well we have to go lily," arizona says dragging me off.

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As arizona and I are stood in the coffee cart queue, I feel someone tap my shoulder, I turn around to see maya stood there with one of my hoodies on her hair is now in a Bob, It looks good.
"Lily," she says removing the hood.
"What," I say not wanting her to be here, she cheated on me.
"I'm sorry, you were right everyone told me he was abusive, and everyone was right I just didn't see it," she says looking exhausted.
"Kiss her," arizona says.
"Shut up," I tell her.
"Lily, I'm sorry, please take me back, you told me and I didn't listen you were there for me when no one else was, I need you," she says all I want to do right now is kiss her but I stopping myself.
"How can I trust you," I ask her.
"You may not trust me now but I will spend every moment proving it to you," maya says in return.
  " for god sake just kiss her," arizona says. I nudge her away. And kiss maya like there's no one around, unbeknown to me amelia was a few people back in the queue.
"I'm sorry," she repeats.
"Hey, it's ok, I'm glad your back, and I need you to," I wisper into her ear.
"Can you come round to my apartment later please,"she asks.
"Of course," I say kissing her forehead before she leaves.

"Lily," amelia yells in the hallway of the Or floor.
"Huh, hey amelia, what's up," I ask confused why she's yelling.
"You didn't tell me about your girlfriend, do you not trust me," she asks, how did she find out, no, no, she was not ment to find out yet, no one was but I guess I did kiss her In a public space.
"Um, how do I answer that, not really at the moment because the first time I was in an irritable mood you thought I was using again, when in reality my girlfriend was just yelling at me and other things, so I guess I don't really trust you amelia," I say not in the mood for this.
"Well for what it's worth I'm sorry and I'm proud of you, see you at home," she says leaving to answer a page.

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"Maya, you can't expect me to trust you straight away, trust is earned,"