P.S. Destroy

The Invitation

"What?" I can't believe what Lauren just asked me. "You actually want ME to be social for ones? You have never asked me to something like this before."

Okay, so maybe I should lighten you up about the situation. Where should I start? Well, I'm Ivy. I'm fifteen and I've got only two friends: my guinea pig Ebony and Lauren. Lauren and I have veen best friends as long as I can remember, which says pretty much. I'm what they call an introvert. I spend my spare time at home with Ebony or reading or writing. I also spend quite a lot of time on the internet. I love singing but I would never dare to sing in front of anybody.

But yeah, I'm an introvert which means that I'm the most awkward person in any human interactions you could ever meet. I know never what to say or what to do and I don't enjoy being with people I don't know. I always feel like what I do is wrong and that the other person thinks I'm the most incompetent person ever.

It's actually nothing new. I've always been like this. My mother has told me that when I was a baby I cried without a sound so she never noticed when I was crying. She noticed first when I was asleep when she saw my tearstaind cheeks. She has also told me that the only thing you could hear from me was a low humming but it stoped always if someone commented on it. When I was about three I stoped humming in front of others becouse a girl ones yelled to me to shut up. I haven't dared to sing since then. Expet when I'm by myself.

So, I'm pretty much always quiet exept with Lauren or when I'm by myself which is sometimes a problem in school when I have to do something in front of the class or with someone else than Lauren. I've never been on someone elses birthday than Lauren's or at someones party. I would never have the courage to come to a party. I have neither been to a school ball. Ever.

And now, Lauren is here.

At my house.

Asking me if I would want to go with her and her boyfriend Alex.

To the school ball.

I'm the most anti-social person she knows. And she asks me to go with them to the school ball. That's actually how they met.

"Why do you want me to come? You could ask so many others. Like one of the other couples from our class!"

"You need to have fun sometimes!" Lauren is not going to give up easily.

"But I do have fun. Alone. At home. With my books." I insist.

"You need to live!"

"But if someone recognises me? Or if I do something that ends up on a video that goes around the internet? I can come to another one of the school dances."

"You always say that. Nobody will film anything. Besides everyone will be wearing costumes! You might even get a chanse to dance with some nice guy and maybe get you first kiss." Lauren wiggles her eyebrows at me.

"No way!"

"Oh come on sweetie please! For me! You have never come to a dance with me. I've always had to go with Amanda and Helena. There's nothing wrong with them but I want to go atleast ones with you! Please!" Lauren looks at me with the best sad-puppy-eyes-that-makes-you-do-anything at me. Though the look has lost some of it's power because she has used them so many times all these years they still work. I start to feel bad because she's right. I've never went with anyone to a dance before.

"But you've got Alex." I try though my tone gives away that I've already given in.

"Your'e the best! now all that we have left is your costume!" Lauren is already in a whole different mood. "I'm going to be a Disney princess." I can't help but laugh at her excitement. She's like a small child that has just found out that she is going to get a new toy.

"Okay, okay." I say through giggles. "I think I can come up with something on my own." I yawn. "Shouldn't we go to sleep already? It's almost midnight and we've got school tommorrow."

"Yeah. I guess so. But remember that you promised to come to the dance next Friday and you have to come up with a costume before it." Lauren says and slids into her sleeping bag.

"Yes yes. Good night, sleep tight and don't let the bedbugs bite."

"How do you always have the energy to rhyme?" Lauren asks with a sleepy tone.

"Dunno." I smile at her and notice that she's already asleep.

I try to go asleep but my thoughts won't leave me alone. I can't belive that I actually said that I'm going to go with her to the dance. I strongly dislike being in places where there is more than ten people. And I have to come up with a costume too. How will I ever manage to survive an entire night in the same place as most of the people from our school? I hope I could just disappear before Friday. Or maybe I could pretend that I'm sick. Or come up with another excuse. But Lauren can see through me always when I lie. I can't lie to her. And I already promised to her. I never brake my promises. She would be super dissapointed if I would cancel it now. I can't do that to my only friend. Otherwise I'm not going to have a friend for too long anymore. Well, she's not going to leave me 'cause we've been BFFs for nearly ten years. Actually, when winter break starts in a few months it will be exactly ten years from when we first called each other our BFFs. I hope that will last forever since she's my only friend.

AN:
So heres the first chapter. I've got no clue how long it is. I hope it's not too short and I hope you like it.

~ Stella