Brooklyn Amelia Caffrey

Painting

Brooklyn's pov

I finally got out of bed and yes I'm still heartbroken so I told myself that I had to do something and maybe put it down on paper so what better thing to do then paint a picture. I really need to do something other than lay in bed crying about my ex criminal boyfriend who was gonna kill me once he was done with me. It's weird because I have a ex criminal brother, of course I mean he's an ex criminal. We're still brother and sister and nothing will ever change that not even if we get into a big fight. I don't mean I have a boyfriend who's an ex criminal but I have a ex boyfriend who's in prison right now. Ha, my life is wonderful!

I walked out of my room and I walked up to the coffee maker. He then comes up behind me and grabs me and I jumped. How am i not supposed to jump when my brother just scared me? I can't.

He started saying how awesome it was to see me out of bed, sure he didn't see me with a smile on my face but he just liked that I actually got out of my room after the break up. 

He then went over to the stove and started making breakfast. After getting my coffee I sat down on the couch and watched him as he cooked.

I just kept taking sips and sips of my coffee and yes I finally felt awake but I still wasn't happy, like I told Neal yesterday, I'll never be happy again!

After he was done cooking, I watched as he put the plates down on the table. wow the food looked so good.

I got right up from the couch, took the plate and went back over to the couch. He said I should eat with him at the table and I said "Nope, I'm good"

All he did was full name me "Brooklyn Amelia Caffrey"

I said "Neal, do you want me to ever be happy again because if you do then let me eat on the couch, thank you"

I started eating and then I finished the food in like a second and it was good. After he was done eating, I saw him go over to the one chair and put his hands on it and kinda seem like he was thinking about something.

I think he just wanted me to smile but I said "I know what your thinking and look I want to be happy but if you don't remember that my boyfriend turned out to be a criminal who dates girls and then kills them. My heart got broken and you want me to be happy! Forget it, I told you yesterday that I'll never be happy again!"

He came over to the couch and again he tried to get me to smile. Oh he won't stop until I smile but anyway, he got down on his knees and he smiled. 

Ok Ok I broke, I couldn't keep a straight face. I smiled too but I didn't want to, his smile is just well um comforting I guess. I don't know! I mean I know he was only smiling just to get me to smile and it worked sadly.

Now he was smiling because I was finally smiling. Later I finally wanted to paint that picture of my broken heart. He said he would paint with me since it gives us some brother and sister time. 

We get our supplies and he jokes and says "Your not the gonna forge a painting, are you?"

I laugh and say "Nope, I'm not going to paint a painting that already exist but a painting of what my broken heart looks like"

We then both start laughing about it.

We start going at our paintings and then I tell him to look at mine so far and so he looks up from his painting and looks at mine. He tells me how good mine looks and all I could do was cry. I thought doing this would make me happy again but all it did was remind me why I was heartbroken.

He looks up at me and then he sees that I'm tearing up so he puts down his easel and gets up and comes over and hugs me.

He asked me what was wrong and I said *crying* "I don't know, I just want to be happy and I thought that this would help but it instead made me feel even more heartbroken, Ugh I just hate Zach! I mean I thought I found this great guy but he turned out to be a criminal who kills girls after he's done with them and so what we had wasn't real. Why was I so stupid to believe that I finally found a great guy? I mean I know i'm not gonna be like you where you kept going after a girl who didn't want you but I just feel like nothing will ever make me feel like I'm good enough and I'm done trying to find something like that. Like I know Kate didn't want you but at least she didn't try to kill you, I hated her but again the one thing she didn't do was try to kill you. I mean he could have just broken up with me instead of me finding out that after he was done with me he was gonna murder me. Ya know if you want to leave me too, go ahead because I'm not good for anyone!"

I'm right, I'm not good for anyone! I guess it's back to my room!