I had been thinking lately that everything was wrong. That everything that has happened to me was wrong and that i didn't deserve it. All these bad things in my life i seem to have pushed away and tried to forget about them. But this , this was creeping in. It was smashing at me tearing me down . it was leaking into my heart and tearing it apart every last thing that i have now is gone. My family, my home, and my love for some guy that turns out It wasn't real. I was hoping this was all a dream that one day i would wake up from it all. But alas it hasn't happened yet.
I feel as if I'm slowly getting out of this world. that I'm drifting from my life. I'm in so much pain as in emotionally and i cant seem to stop.
This morning Melody brought me some tea to cheer me up. But right now I'm still staring at the small white mug sitting on my bed side table. I haven't eaten in three days i haven't said one word to anyone that comes in my path.
Last week when Melody took me on that walk i had to cheer-up but i can see that it never worked. I'm so embarrassed by my actions that I'm not even excited for art school anymore I'm not even wanting to see James. I have just been laying in my bed In Silence that soon i will fall asleep and never wake up.
You may find me a bit crazy, that I'm so sad about James. But can you honestly tell me you have never felt like this once in your life. Maybe not the same situation or maybe it is.
I cant seem to understand anymore.
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My head has been feeling sore this morning i don't know if its from all the tears i have shed or just the constant pain I'm in. My vision has been fuzzy and i cant seem to make out how many fingers I'm holding up. maybe 5... or ...... 20
The darkness is creeping through my mind and my thoughts have been scattered leaving me at a blank. the smell of the warm scented tea filled my nose and a smile crept to my face. i could feel my lungs Becoming smaller as it was harder to breath. soon i was left too my dreams
in the Silence.
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Novela JuvenilLia Hedges finds her self in Love with James Wendal someone she has known since she was a little girl. After becoming friends All she dreams about is for him to be more. When she gets excepted into an art institute James just so happens to be there...
