~Tales of the Heart~

Chapter 17

Kaoru cuddled onto me as I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep. 

The next morning at 11:38 am

I woke up the following day, got up, and stretched my arms. 

"MMmmmmm," I groan as I glanced at a paper sitting on the lamp table and take it. I slowly open it and tried reading it, but failed. It was written in Japanese and I could understand no shit. I took my phone out and went to google to take a picture and get a translation.

Hi love, when I endeavored to wake you up...you didn't seem to arouse. Fortuitously, you were still breathing, but your head was heating up marginally. Just have a day off today and relax. I'll take care of it today and you can join in when you feel preponderant.

I felt a small glow in myself...I was glad about how he cared about me. Like, this is how a husband treats his wife, right? What am I thinking?! We aren't even dating and I am thinking about us married!!! I smacked my head to shake it off and kept reading. 

I withal dropped the little rascal at school, so you have the house for yourself. If you feel fine later, can you pick him up? I withal have a minute meeting today with some other caligraphers. If you can't, don't sweat it. I'll ask Reki or Langa to pick him up since their schools are proximate.

I mean, I am feeling better, so I wouldn't mind picking up Miya. But for now...I need to find something to entertain myself and I know the exact thing I am going to do. I took out my phone and called Sasha. 

"What's good, Carl!" Sasha screamed into the phone. 

"Want to come over? I'm bored as fuck," I mutter into the phone. 

"I was thinking if you wanted to go skateboarding, like how we did in LA," Sasha asks softly. "That is if you want to. I know your father's death as affected you and boarding."

"Sorry, girl. No skateboarding for me...why don't you swing over and watch stranger things. I heard the fourth season finally came," I say into the phone. 

"That works too. I'll grab some snacks and send me your location. 

"Ight!" I say and Sasha cut the call. I sent her the location and went to the living room and started setting everything up for us to watch stranger things. Soon Sasha arrived and the two of us sat together as we started to stream Stranger Things. 

"I just love Steve! Only if I could find a man like him in real life," Sasha mutters. 

"I don't know if you would find someone, just like Steve...but I'm sure you'll find a nice guy. Say, what guy are you into?" I ask her as I paused the show. 

"Well, the guy has to look hot in some way. Well, I find it attractive when guys flirt...and show off. It's really cute. Well, this one isn't a must, but like...it would be nice if they were fit or even better a buff guy," Sasha says, shrugging. I thought for a while and looked back up at Sasha with realization. 

"I know someone like that," I say, snapping my fingers. 

"Really? Do you know if I know them," Sasha asks in surprise? 

"Well, you met him yesterday. You know that green-haired guy who works in that Italian restaurant," I state out. 

"He does seem a bit attractive," Sasha mutters with a hinder of blush on her cheeks. 

"Someone's got a little crushy," I say, unpausing the TV. 

"No, I don't! Jeez! You being a robot doesn't really stop you from shipping me, huh?!" Sasha says, pouting and crossing her arms. 

"Just because show emotions doesn't mean I have changed. I still feel them, so I am still the same Carla you know," I say, throwing popcorn at her. 

"Whatever," Sasha mumbles, knowing I won this little argument with her. 

"So, you do like Joe?" I ask her. 

"I don't know him much, so I don't know if I can jump to conclusions like that," Sasha says, taking the popcorn I threw at her and putting it in her mouth. 

"Take your time. That's what I am doing here too. I want Kaoru to know the full me before he starts dating me. I don't want there to be a mistake, like for me and Aino," I say, taking some takis.

"Is that so? So you also have a crushy!!" Sasha smirks. 

"Yeah...I do, but he likes me too. We could date but I don't want there to be any mistakes," I say. 

"Girl, you literally adopted a child with him, and you're compatible with him. What else is there for you to show? Why would he stop hating you when you show your emotions? I mean, you will be acting the same, so what difference does it make apart from your face moving again?

"I don't know, okay! I just want to take it slowly, and he respects it. I don't want to go any deeper into this. Discussion over!" I say at the end. 

"I'll respect it too. I was just a bit curious. Sorry if I went over your lines," Sasha says, softly. 

"It's fine. I don't know why this is putting in so much pressure in my life, it's technically not your fault," I say, patting her shoulder. We both stayed quiet after that and began watching stranger things again. I couldn't really focus on the show, but on why I can't accept to date Kaoru right now. I feel like it is beyond my feelings show. 

Sasha made some jokes as we watched but I just nodded at every statement she said since I was deep into my thoughts...what was stopping me? I mean, Kaoru and I are really compatible right now, so why can't we date? It's like, something is stopping me that is huge, but what is that huge thin?! Wait I just realize...

My father's death...I don't want to forget about my father and move on this quickly.