Stand Strong

Sooner Or Later

I was sitting in the Main Guard's office as I was looking over some files recently given to me. I am tired of the Doves being able to disturb this family. The boss might be unhappy with my decision about leaving the main house. But it was what I thought would be safest until I got rid of that gang.

Leaving Haru with May and Roxy was not the best thing I thought of doing. But seeing how brave he was really made me proud until he was hurt. I can't let him get hurt like that again ever. He wanted to stay with May after he woke up at the hospital. I let him stay with him like he wanted even if it hurt to know he was scared of me now. He may have not seen me at my worst time but he went through such a horrible experience.

May has been trying to get in contact with me. But I am afraid of what he has to say. I sighed remembering how mad he was at me when he found out about me moving. I was walking from him following me when he stopped at the main door of the HQ.

"You can't run away from me forever Yumi! Just let me talk to you please?" I ignored his pleas as I walked to the office. I just want them to be safe and sound. Why can't anyone see that? Being with me and involving my feelings with my work will get him or my son killed. I have to see to it that I take this job even more seriously.

Haru deserves so much more than what he has now. He should be with a family going to school and making friends. But I was selfish and kept him to myself because I felt responsible. And then I fell in love with his caring and sweet nature. If he left me I don't know what I would do with myself. My son, please don't hate me for my actions.

The door opened to Sir walking in. I stood up and bowed before looking at him with a straight face. "What can I do for you, Sir? If I can do anything for you please do let me know." He nodded before sitting down and I sat back down.

"No need to be so formal with me I am just here to talk some sense into you again. At least try again." I sighed before looking through the files once more. He grabbed the files before putting them on the chair. You could sense his anger from a mile away. This was not the first time he had come to talk to me. But even though he was my boss he never ordered me to go back. He just hoped talking to me would get me to change my mind.

"You know Dominic is furious with me right now because I let you go. He says it would be best if you had stayed with him for certain reasons he will not say... I will say this though I agree with him, I will not force you to do anything. Even if I hired you I will not order you to do something you are not comfortable doing."

I shook my head and then looked up sighing, "I wish I could have controlled myself at that time. He didn't have to see such a horrible sight. And Haru getting hurt was also my fault. I could have saved him before it happened or not have let us leave the house on such a vulnerable day. It was just a terrible mistake from the beginning." I felt tears running down my face as I spoke my thoughts out loud. Though I never really changed my expression I knew he could see right through me.

"You are not the one to blame for all that has happened. He wanted to get you guys out of the house to get your mind off these types of things. It was just an unfortunate time that you were seen. It could have happened any moment." I nodded, wiping my face.

He stood up walking to the window looking outside at the back yard where my office faced. "You know your son keeps asking for you. He is a smart boy who knows when something is wrong. Never was he afraid of you. He just wanted to give you time to yourself. He reads you like an open book and it's not good to worry him."

My eyes opened in shock at the news of my son asking for me. He was finally wanting to see me. I thought to myself slowly on deciding to talk to May, too. I know that if I go see Haru he will try to talk to me. Asher would tell me when he was asking for me whenever he had the chance.

It has been a few days since the incident though so maybe it is time. I looked at Sir and he smiled nodding. Standing up I told him I had somewhere to be at the moment. Today would be the day I would stop running away from my fears and face them. Maybe with Haru there it will be easier to confront him and let him talk.

I ran downstairs to bump into one of the guards that is usually on duty inside. I passed him as he looked up at me nodding his head. "Where are you going? It is not your lunch time yet." He stood confused before looking at me surprised and then walking with me inside.

"Boss I was told by someone inside that you gave me permission to go on break. Someone who was on good terms with you and the next in line." I gave him a stern look before we reached his area he was in charge of. The halls of Sir's family rooms.

"Tell the others to go on stand by and wait for my order. I will handle this myself." He nodded and I slowed my pace once turning the corner. Who would put May in danger like that. I don't know anyone who would use my name to get guards out these halls. I could hear voices and started to get worried for May. Once I reached May's room the voices stopped at my knock.

"May, you okay in there? I came to talk to you about something." He hadn't answered, making me more worried so I busted down the door. No enemy in sight at all actually. He was just with a half-naked girl while also half-naked. The sight made my body warm in an instant with anger. But who was I to get mad at him? We weren't together.

"Ah, sorry to have interrupted you two. Please, forget I came in." I wanted to dig a hole in a corner and bury myself in it alive. He wasn't really worried about me too much I guess. Maybe he seemed so on the outside to make it look like he cared. Tears were brimming my eyes once again.

Being in view of my fellow guards meant I was not to show any weakness. I ran off, turning the corner as I heard his door open. I told the men to stand by, it was a false alarm. I left for the HQ hoping to get to my dorm without anyone seeing my watery eyes.

I felt so tired emotionally today from all the crying earlier. And now this as well which also made me cry. I wish that I was the one he was loving. I laughed to myself at that statement of a wish one-sided. I need my Haru to comfort me at times like this.

I guess it would have been sooner or later his true intentions would come out.