Stand Strong

Haru's Day?

The door opened suddenly as it was the morning. I groaned and rolled over in bed. Once I heard a small giggle I smiled sitting up being tackled by a little one. I laughed as I hugged the tiny being in my arms. He tried to hug me tighter as if I would let go.

"Mommy I missed you so much and I am sorry. I love you so much, mommy!" I hugged him tighter knowing how he felt. I guess with all that has been going on I was keeping my distance. I am not proud of it but I honestly believe that he needed some time to think about it. My idiocy hurt us both and I can only hope he will never be upset with me again.

"How did you get in here baby?" I sat him on my lap while I propped up against the headboard. He looked away before starting to pout. I could tell he thought he would get in trouble if he told me. Picking a strand of my hair and braiding it told me right. It was something he did when he was nervous.

"I won't get mad at you I promise. You know you can tell me anything right?" He nodded before pointing to the door and speaking, "I sneaked in mommy. Guards didn't see me. I wanted to come to see mommy. Roxy said no." Hugging him again after he started to tear up was all I could do. I started to rock him a bit before speaking.

"Haru, you should have told Roxy to call me. I would have come to get you sooner if I had known you wanted to see me." I was surprised by his statement though for sure. No one has been able to get past my guards since I became the main guard. It was impossible but Haru was always honest. I'll have to talk to the head guard of the front and hall positions. We can't have just anyone coming in if a five-year-old was able to.

I picked him up as I got out of bed walking to my makeshift closet. I was never one really for anything fancy but it was a bit cramped in my room here compared to May's. I shook my head forgetting the thought of him. The thought of him upsets me and I can't have that. It is my main priority to protect this family and I will.

"So have you eaten yet?" He looked down before shaking his head, making me smile. So cute I thought before setting him on his feet. I looked through the small number of clothes I brought with me when I moved in here. I picked out some shorts and an oversized hoodie. Today was going to be all about Haru. I hope that from now on, I can never scare him or disappoint him. I want to be the best mother I can be to him.

"Mommy? Why is May sad? Roxy said he is not doing well." He was always one to worry about others. Haru is such a sweet boy he is too good for this world. I shrugged my shoulders still walking off with him on my hip.

"Don't worry baby, okay?" He nodded before laying his head on my shoulder. I sighed before thinking about what to do with May since it seems Roxy is gonna ask about it. And I am still going to be protecting him. I am the main guard here, I can't just ignore him.

First, get breakfast for Haru then go find Roxy. I turned the corner to the kitchen doorway walking in. I sat Haru on the usual counter I used to eat with him on. Walking around the stoves and other islands in search of Maddux. "Hey, little Miss, how was dinner last night? Made it especially for you." I turned to see him crossing his arms to act tough. I chuckled, pinching his cheek then hugging him.

"It was a very tasty entrée Maddux and very much needed. Thank you so much for comforting me. I am sorry for barging into the staff quarters to find you and Nana." I whispered the last part remembering how I cried in front of them as they were like my grandparents. It was always them I came to for help.

"It is alright to miss you can do so anytime you need a shoulder to cry on, okay? Is little Haru with you today?" I nodded to him as we walked to my usual spot. Haru jumped up standing before jumping on to Maddux. "Whoa there bud almost made me fall. Ready for breakfast you two." Haru started to look at me before wiggling in Maddux's arms. I giggled at the cute way he was acting.

Maddux sat Haru down as I pulled out a stool and book. Setting the book on the stool Haru sat on it as soon as he saw that I put it down. It was the only way for him to eat at the counter. The stool was a tad short for the counter. He waited patiently as Maddux brought us our plates. Haru got pancakes with bacon as I got some eggs with sausage and toast.

While eating breakfast Roxy came in and started to talk to me about how she was sad. She had missed me and felt bad for Haru since he wanted to come to see me but she didn't want to cause me trouble. I reassured her that I was not going to be troubled whatsoever for anything. And that I missed her, too.

She also started to tell me about how May has been going crazy about not being able to see me other than at important meetings and dinners. Even when he does he is always too busy to get to me or something catches him before he can get away.

I sighed before dragging her to the doorway. "Look I can't talk to him anymore he made me think he actually liked me. I wish that I knew that I wasn't the only one who was keeping his time." She looked confused before her eyes got wide. She pointed to me and then to the air.

"He told you he liked you? But why would he say that when he was engaged?" I looked at her shocked before I started to think about our times together. She then slapped her hand over her mouth. I figured I wasn't supposed to know but now I do. Suddenly I felt almost a little numb in my chest.

I walked back in the kitchen as Haru was talking to Maddux. He looked over and was pouting once he saw my face. I quickly changed it, smiling so he wouldn't notice my sadness. He seemed hesitant before shaking his head. "Are you ready to go munchkin?"

He jumped up and handed his plate to Roxy who came in. She called my name but I ignored her looking away. I grabbed Haru and walked out of the kitchen to the main lobby space in the house. I didn't want to talk about this in front of Haru. My head started to fill up with questions.

I didn't want to think about all this right now as this is Haru's day. I sighed, shaking my head and smiled at Haru. I got him ready to go to the backyard to play on the playground set the boss had put in for Haru. It was also a place where I could think without being disturbed.

He should have told me he was engaged.