𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙈𝙤𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩. || TsukiYama/KeiDashi

13

the image will be used soon in this and next chapter. (note: they can only see the Japanese characters, not the romaji and translation. and I also have no idea how hospital's work.)

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Kei Tsukishima's PoV.

I tighten the grip as more tears flow down my cheeks. I wanted to see what Yamaguchi did in the book but I'm scared it'll hurt me more. I calmed down a bit, taking a few deep breaths. I opened my phone, going to the volleyball group chat. I decided to tell them and all of their reactions were how I expected it to be.

I turned off my phone and stared at the book. I sigh, opening the book with hesitation. What I saw broke me. It looks childish and adorable but I can't stop thinking about the fact that I'm in the hospital waiting for him.

The moon, the stars, the flowers, the volleyball, the confession on the bottom right on the page... Yamaguchi is adorable.

'Why does he like me?'

I close the book, placing my hands on my face. I've never cried like this about anything or anyone, so this was a first. I know some people are looking at me weird or pity me, but I could careless about what they think of me. I finally get to have a break down with a reason.

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I felt numb after crying for a while. Maybe that's why I've never cried like this before, I'm exhausted and there's nothing I can do. I decided to hide my face in my arms and close my eyes to rest them.

After a few minutes of just hearing my own breathing I finally hear door open. I look up, seeing a nurse holding a clipboard.

"Is Kei Tsukishima still here?"

Suprised at the mention my name, I got up, opening my mouth to speak.

"Yes, that's me."

"Alright. Are you here for Tadashi Yamaguchi?"

"Yes."

The nurse nodded.

"Relationship?"

"Fri-"

"I love...you..."

"Dating."

The nurse nodded once again.

"Go on. His room number is 468."

I bowed down slightly as a way to thank them and made my way to go to his room. At least their walls weren't plain white, it was painted royal blue and cadmium green, switching on each walls, it was nice.

I look at the person laying on the bed. I bit my bottom lip, getting closer to him. The doctor explained thing they usually do while Yamaguchi and I were just listening.

They mentioned how there were scars on his body and the scars that are in the process of healing and how they're not from the incident. They asked me if I knew about them. I nodded my head as a way to tell them that I do. They asked if I tried to do anything. Of course, I told them the things I have told Yamaguchi to do, how I have tried to stop him from doing it and how he always looks exhausted. They then asked me if he has tried to commit.

"No." I can't help it. I don't want them to know that he tried to do it. They nodded and made their way to the door.

"Look for him. Make sure to eat."

I nod, turning my attention to Yamaguchi.

"Tsukki, why did you lie to them about if I did it or not?"

"Do you want them to know?"

Yamaguchi shook his head slowly.

"Thought so. How are you feeling?"

"I don't...know... I feel okay...kind of."

"Are you hungry?"

"No..."

"Okay."

Even though he's hurt and obviously exhausted, he's still smiling. His smile looks so fragile.