Aftereffects

Night terror

* Mentioning of a panic attack and what it's like*

I sat up panting as my body shook once again. Placing my face in my hands as the memory of the night terror began to subside. I swallowed. Looking up I noticed I'm alone with no sign of Jake and I can feel breathing becoming more rapid
" no..it was all a dream ..." I feel like my chest is constricting as I gasp for air and the world around me becomes far too quiet. I know I'm about to  have  a panic attack...and I know it because I'm alone.  As it starts, I think of last night and how real it felt how I had felt Jake's touch. I'm gasping now as everything becomes a blur then there's hands on my shoulders and I can hear someone calling my name. I stiffen then I hear a heartbeat as arms hold me protectively. I began to sob and I knew the worst of my attack was over. I blink a few times and notice I'm gripping onto something. I look seeing it's a black fabric
then I feel a hand rubbing my head.  I freeze as I move back looking up to  see Jake looking down at me
" Jake?" He nods
" yes sam it's me" he whispers wiping my tears away
Y..you're really here" Jake nods
" I am" my breath hitches as I throw myself at Jake wrapping  my arms around his neck catching him off guard as we both fall back onto the bed . I feel his hands on my hips moving me down I tense realising what I've done I lean up
" Sorry I.." then Jake moves my arm from underneath me as I gently land on his chest. He wraps his arm over me, pulling me against him, rubbing my side. I smile wrapping my arm over him as we cuddle
" I'm sorry I left you alone" he finally says
" I saw how peaceful you looked and didn't want to wake you'' I glance up at Jake seeing him frowning slightly
" If I had known you suffered from panic attacks" he sighs and I can see the irritation. I sat up slightly resting on my elbow as I looked at Jake staring into his ocean blue eyes as his hand now rested on my hip, his thumb moving back and forth on a little piece of bare skin.
" Thank you for coming back" I whisper
" I will tell you when I'm leaving from now on" I nod running my free hand through his hair as he watches me I chuckle shyly causing Jake to smile I lay back down on his chest
" And I'll do the same " Jake chuckled 
" That would be the safest option obviously"  I chuckled looking up at him sticking my tongue out
" I wouldn't do that" his voice a whisper I
And why not?" Jake arches his eyebrow then grins shaking his head. Causing me to smile I lean forward kissing his cheek
Thank you for holding me through my attack" he nods
" You are very welcome" I get off of Jake already missing his warmth as I walked over seeing coffee I pick it up smelling it
" MMM coffee" I take a sip scrunching my nose
" I didn't know what you'd like in it" Jake admits grabbing his coffee and taking a sip unaffected by it's bitter taste
" Well my beloved hacker I like mine sweet" thankful that there were sugar packets  I pour four in looking up noticing Jake was red
" What?'' I smile as he turns his head
" What you just called me" he stops covering his face with his hand. I looked at him confused then it hit me.
" Sorry I wasn't thinking" I admit looking down at my coffee. Calling Jake my hacker had just come out. I hadn't really thought about it. I stir my coffee unsure of what to say
I...I liked it" I look up in surprise as Jake looks down at me. He goes to say something but stops
" We better eat before it gets cold".