The Dirty Dancer • JJK

Chapter 17

Jungkook's POV

I knew he would hurt her.

Doesn't matter what excuse Jimin comes up with, he fucked someone else and there's no coming back from that. He was lucky she even gave him a chance.

On our way to my motorbike, Siri said she wanted to just go for a ride to take her mind off things and clear her head. So here we are, out for a joyride around town. I decided to stop near a beach so she could have a walk along it if she wanted.

While she walked ahead of me, there were some food stalls and I decided to buy a couple of skewers to try cheer her up. Once I had them, I ran after her.

"Noona! Wait up!"

She stopped and waited for me and when I reached her, I handed her the food. "Here Noona. You haven't eaten yet since we were meant to eat at Tae and Hobi's place."

"Aw, Koo... You didn't have to..."

"Don't be silly. Of course I did." I gave her a sweet smile.

"Thanks. You really are the sweetest."

We sat at a bench as we quietly ate our skewers. I noticed she didn't look too upset as she was smiling at the food she was eating.

Siri: "Mmm, this is yummy. What is it?"

JK: "BBQ lamb skewers... Noona, are you ok?" I asked with concern.

Siri: "Yeah.. why?"

JK: "Well... you didn't really cry that much... you did a little back at their place but you don't look too upset now..."

She chuckled at me, "Do you want to see me cry?"

"What? No! Of course not! I just thought... you would be more upset I guess?"

She shrugged while looking at her food. "I knew what I was getting myself into when I said yes to dating him. I was angry and upset after seeing his dick in someone else and hearing his stupid excuse so yes, I cried a bit... But I knew there was a chance I'd get hurt and I guess in the back of my mind I knew it wouldn't work out in the long run with Jimin..."

I was speechless. She didn't expect to workout with Jimin in the end??

"If you knew you wouldn't work out then why did you say yes to dating him?"

"Because I'm a selfish asshole." She looked at her lap a little guilty.

"I'm confused..."

She let out a deep sigh. "I really did like him. Truly, I did. And he made me happy but... there was always something in the back of my mind... something that he would distract me from..."

"Okaaay..."

She sighed deeply again, "Look, Koo. If I am honest and tell you this, please don't change or be weird with me."

I'm so confused right now and I don't know what she's going to tell me. "Well now that you've said that I'm a little worried..."

"Just please... promise me you won't change?" She pleaded with her eyes.

My heart was racing in nervousness but I nodded my head, "I promise, Noona."

"Ok, so... the reason why I'm not totally upset about this is because my feelings for Jimin weren't always 100%... There was always somebody else in the back of my mind..."

I looked at her stunned. She's liked somebody else?! Who??? I could feel a little burn in my chest again.

"You, Koo... It's always been you..."

My eyes went even wider than ever now and my jaw dropped. She's liked me this whole time?!?!

Well that burn in my chest just disappeared...

"I'm sorry! I don't know how or why but I've felt something for you the moment I laid my eyes on you the first night we met and I thought you may have felt something too until you said you had a girlfriend. I know you have Jennie and I've tried so hard to stop these feelings ever since you told me.

But then you offered for me to move in with you and then my feelings just grew more and more and you became my second best friend. And I was happy just admiring you from a distance. But then you had to go and make up that stupid lie of Jimin and I being together and I was really upset because the whole time I've liked you.

And then seeing you with Jennie just made me think I really needed to move on from you and so with Jimin being all sweet and funny, I let it happen. I accepted being his girlfriend in the hopes that I could move on from you and for a while it worked. I was 100% into him and gave him all my attention. But then two weeks ago you found my baby stuff and you held me so tenderly, and all those feelings I've tried to push away came back.

Since then I've been trying to be there more for Jimin so I could try push those feelings for you away but then he had to go and cheat on me and now I'm here! Telling you how I've felt about you this entire time and I just really don't want you to change because I've told you all this. Please don't let me ruin what you have with Jennie. Please don't be mad at me Koo..."

I was speechless. I was stunned. I was Jungshooked...

I was trying to process everything she just said...

She's liked me this whole time and has been trying not to.. She dated Jimin as a distraction from me...

She's liked me this entire time...

Holy shit!

She's liked ME the whole time! Just like I've liked HER this whole time too!

But she just said she doesn't want me to change... she doesn't want to ruin what Jennie and I have- even though, in all honesty, I don't think Jennie and I have that much going on... I've never told her I loved her or anything as it just never felt right to say... and I've even considered breaking up with her recently...

"Koo? Are you ok? Are you mad at me?"

Oh shit. I still haven't said anything... I've got so much going on in my mind right now...

"Shit. You're upset with me right? I shouldn't have been that honest with you... Maybe I should move out? Things will be awkward now right?"

Fuck! Say something Jeon! You stupid fuckwit!

"No! Don't move out! It's ok Noona. Seriously. I was just processing everything you were saying. I'm not upset with you at all, I'm just in shock..."

"You sure, Koo? I can move out if I make things uncomfortable for you"

"I don't want you to move out. I like having you around the house. Please don't go. I promise I'm ok with everything."

She relaxed at my words and gave me a small smile. Without even thinking, I pulled Siri in for a hug and held her tight.

"Thank you for being honest with me Noona. I really appreciate it." I said as I hugged her tight.
She has no idea how happy I am to know that she's liked me this whole time.

"Thanks Koo. For being understanding."

We rode back home together on my motorbike. I had happy butterflies in my stomach and a smile on my face under my helmet.

During the ride, the one main thought I had was that I want Siri but I can't have her just yet because of Jennie.

And Siri doesn't want me to change, meaning she wants me to stay with Jennie because she thinks I'm happy with her...

This means I can't exactly break up with Jennie right now otherwise Siri will think I did it for her, even though I technically would be doing it for her... But I don't want her to feel guilty and think it's her fault so I'll have to wait a bit before I end things with Jennie.

I just hope Siri will still have feelings for me when the time comes.

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