Forgotten Love | SasuNaru

~Chapter 8

Naruto POV

I hummed as I began looking at another report about the Otsutsuki clan. Seeing the process on their investigation, tapping my finger on my desk impatiently. I heard the door open to see Shikamaru smiling with something in his hands. I raised an eyebrow at him as he placed a bottle of saki on my desk. "What's this for" I asked, not quite catching onto what Shikamaru was getting at. Shikamaru chuckled as he poured himself a drink and down the saki himself.

"Oh nothing, I just thought you needed something to loosen you up a bit" Shikamaru said as he put two clean shot glasses onto my desk as he held his own in his hand. I hummed as I smiled at him, "what's that supposed to mean" I asked, trying to sound offend by the gesture as I grinned slightly at him. "Ahh don't worry about it, I just thought it would be good to go offer a drink to your guest, afterall..alcohol certainly has it's way to make people more relax at confessing ones emotions" Shikamaru stated as he stood next to the door. Before I could get a chance to open my mouth, Shikamaru opened the door and spoke. "You have the rest of the day off, I did tell you that I'd give you guys some privacy to talk things over, didn't I" Shikamaru muttered as my eyes widen at the statement. "Wait...Sasuke's here already but I thought he wasn't suppose to arrive until next week" I questioned, my heart thumping in my chest with anticipation.

"Yeah, I thought so too but apparently he said he needed to talk to you immediately, says it's important...I know todays been stressful enough for you so I'll see if I can pull some strings and give you the week off if I can...even if it's gonna be a total drag" Shikamaru groaned. He went back over to my desk picking up a stack of papers, "I'll take care of these...you owe me one, ya here" Shikamaru said pointedly as he carried the one stack of papers away. "Thanks a lot Shikamaru, I definitely owe you one for this...just let me know if you need help" I called out to him. Shikamaru chuckled, "if anything, you're the one who needs help and some serious rest...don't think about it too hard okay" Shikamaru replied making me yawn from the mere mention of sleep. Carrying off the single stack of papers, "take care and good luck to you both, you're gonna need it" Shikamaru shouted from the hallway making me giggle to myself. As I stared down at my fidgeting fingers, "well, it's good to see that you're in a good mood" I heard an all to familiar voice come from the door.

My shoulders shivered at the overwhelming sense of presence slipping into the room. A dark chuckle came, seeping in, as a chill played along the spinal cord of my back. It was almost nerve racking, I thought as shadowy figure loomed over me. Not at all terrifying to me, as my shoulders shook but not out of fear. But out of need to be touched by the now gentle handed Sasuke. A hand that no longer threatened his life but treated him with content.

He wasn't as bitter as he was in the past, I grinned as I looked up at him. "Nice of you to finally come by, wanna drink" I asked as I pour some saki into the shot glasses, Shikamaru gave me. "Sure" he muttered quietly, as he down the tiny shot glass as I did the same. I hummed as I placed the shot glass down, staring at it for a moment. "So, what is it you wanted to talk to me about, I highly doubt you just wanted to drop by...you're not one for fun and games" I muttered, biting the inside of my cheeks. Hating how disappointed and devastated I sounded about the subject.

I made it were it almost sounded like I was desperately wanting him to be here for a different reason. A reason that I said I would put behind me, years ago and here I am. So close to dismissing the reasons why it was wrong to think that way. Reasons that tore us apart long ago, I hummed as I no longer was looking at him. But looking out the window, my body was fidgeting slightly. Even then, I could see his slight reflection through the transparent glass.

Sasuke stepped closer until he was just behind my chair, taking a moment to stared out the window. Standing by and just enjoying the silence as we usually did. Not many words needed to be spoken between us because no matter how far apart we were. How different we could be, we were always connected in a way like no one else. We just understood each other, we just get it, you know. Nothing needed to be said when we already knew the others thoughts and feelings.

It's a way we communicate with each other, I never knew it was a good thing or not. It's almost something pressuring because for the same exact reasons, I could never be able to lie to him. Sasuke just always knew when something was wrong with me. Even though Sasuke hides his feelings more easily, just like him. I could tell when something was different in Sasuke's mood cause to each other, we're as clear as glass. An open book that we constantly skimmed through the pages, looking for the deeper meaning behind the words.

As Sasuke was behind me, I could hear his subtle breathing. Oh god, was it too hard to ask to be held by him. Having him holding me in his arms, is that really such a sin. Especially now since we are both married men, destined to be pulled and break apart. Like a simple glass, once shattered, it's hard to keep it together and sometimes. Not all the pieces are there, the piece could be so small that it's hard to find it in your heart to replace them.

Like a beautiful pottery you get from a loved one filled with flowers. Broken but memories are still inside and it's hard to just throw it away. It's hard, even if you know, it can't be fixed, that doesn't stop you from trying. Trying to glue all the broken together but you know, deep down, it won't be able to hold as strong as it use too. I don't want that to happen, I don't want it to happen to us. Not when you mean so much to me, more than my bestfriend or a rival from the past.

Your more than that to me and I know, that you know that too. You can sense it, can't you Sasuke but yet, you never said anything. It's because, we're both too afraid to make the first move. Too scared to be the one that accidentally topples over the already cracking glass cup. It just got better between us, why now of all times. It was bound to catch up to us eventually but why now of all times.

We are in a crisis and things just got better between me and Boruto. I couldn't look him in the eye if only he knew the dirty things I've done in the past. The secrets I kept from him, secrets I kept away from my own entire family. Secrets that only a selected few knew about, but it was all too soon for me. I wasn't ready for this change in pace, I wanted to go slow. To ease into it but now, time isn't on our side anymore and Boruto is slowly finding out the truth.

Inch by inch, if only I knew then, how much Boruto already knew. I didn't notice that my shoulders were trembling until a gentle hand was place on said shakey shoulders. I could feel him lend down closer beside my ear, "Naruto, we need to talk" Sasuke mutter quietly into my ear. Somehow, the words were unexpected, words that I didn't know I wasn't ready for. God damn it Naruto, what are you doing tensing up now of all times, you know it had to come to his eventually.