Fighting for Love

Sadness and happiness.

Becca's POV

I woke up to Kay talking to someone on my phone. ''Mommy woke up. Look Buck. Mommy.'' Kay jumped to me and gave me the phone. ''Hey when did you call?'' I asked Buck and he laughed. ''I think like 15 minutes ago. Kay told me everything that has happened. It sound like you are having fun.'' Buck said and I laughed.  

''Yeah it is so fun when your son breaks his hand. But apart from that, it is fun to be here.'' I said and smiled at Kay playing with his new toys. ''So I heard that you will come back sooner than you said before. I hope it wasn't a lie.'' Buck said and I smiled. ''Eddie can't keep anything to himself. Can't he?'' I said and Buck laughed. 

''Oh you know him. But don't change to topic. When are you coming back to us?'' Buck asked me and I shook my head. ''I haven't bought the tickets yet so I can't tell you exactly but I hope that in four days I will be back.'' I said and heard Buck scream. ''Fuck yes. I can't handle the others without you. And I think Chris will kill me and Eddie soon if you don't come back.'' Buck said and I laughed. ''You do understand that I have been away for like three days?'' I said laughing and Buck nodded. 

''Yeah but still I miss you guys. But if you come back will you speak to Eddie?'' Buck asked me and I rolled my eyes. ''Yeah. I found what I needed to find so I will talk to him.'' I said and Buck cheered. ''I really can't deal with him anymore. He talks about you all the time.'' Buck said and I smiled at that. ''But I have to go now. Micheal is taking me out.'' He said and I laughed. ''You don't have to rub it in my face.'' I said and said bye. 

''Good morning.'' I said as I walked down the stairs. ''Good morning.''  ''Hey Kay said that you were talking to someone?'' Mary asked my with a small smile on my face. ''Yeah one of my friends. He is working in the station where I work and he is dating my brother.'' I said and got my self some coffee. ''Oh this is great. I'm glad Micheal found someone.'' Mary said and smiled at me. 

''So we are going to see Mark today. Do you want to come with us? And Joe said you are going back tomorrow.'' Mary said as she was playing with Kay. ''Yeah I would love to come see Mark and yeah I need to go back to my parents and then to LA.'' I said and smiled at Kay. ''Okey so let's eat and then we can get going.'' Joe said and we talked while eating. 

While I was getting dressed I tried not to think about seeing Mark's grave. It would be the first time I was seeing that after Kay was born and I didn't know how Kay would act there as well. ''So you are freaking out again?'' I heard suddenly behind me. As I turned around I saw Joe. 

''Yeah you know me. Freaking out about the small things.'' I said and Joe laughed. ''Yeah. But I have a feeling that you were freaking out about something that is not small. Going to Mark's grave? That is big thing. I freak out every time I go there.'' Joe said and sat down on the bed. ''I don't know how I'm supposed to feel or do. It's weird. After I moved I rarely thought about him. I feel like I don't deserve to go his grave.'' I said and Joe started to laugh. 

''It is not your fault that you are moving on. I think that Mark would love that. When he was in the hospital he knew that he wasn't going to live so he told me that he wants me to make sure that you would move on. He never wanted you to stay here or keep holding him life.'' Joe said and I smiled a little. ''I didn't know he told you that. The last talk we had I told him I was maybe pregnant and he told me to move away and be at peace.'' I said and Joe hugged me. ''So you can see that you deserve to go to his grave so let's go so Kay would stop running around the house.'' He said and I laughed. 

''Kay come on let's go to the car.'' I said as we walked down stairs. I heard Kay running to me and almost knocked me down. ''Are you happy we are going to see daddy?'' I asked him as I picked him up. ''Yes let's go.'' Kay said and walked to Joe's car. As we drove to the cemetery I got a text from Eddie.