The Fall- Robby Keene

missing you.

I sat in the waiting room with my mom and Yaya, mom hasn't stopped crying since while Yaya tried to comfort her. I sat in the chair with my legs bouncing, I kept my head in my hands as i allowed the tears to continue to fall. I heard someone say 'I'm sorry' making me look up to see Johnny, I knew mom was going to rip him a new one, so I had gotten up and walked away to a vending machine, so I didn't have to hear it. I placed a dollar in it and pressed the button, but nothing came out. I started hitting it over and over again as I started sobbing some more. I felt hands on my back making me turn around to see Yaya, she pulled me into a hug as I sobbed even harder. I spent that whole day just crying into my Yaya's arms as we waited for Miguel to be back in his room.

*2 weeks later*

I got to school; this was actually my first return since the incident. Miguel was in a coma with a severe spinal injury, and we don't know when he will wake up. I sighed as I stood outside the school doors, I pulled out my phone and looked at Robby's contact. I pressed the call button and listened as it went straight to voicemail just like it had been these past 3 weeks, I hung up and walked inside the school. people stared, some tried showing pity while others whispered. I didn't know what to do, I was dating the guy that put my brother in coma. I could only imagine what people would think. I shrugged away the thoughts as Moon ran over to me, she hugged me tight as I tried not to break down again.

Moon- how are you holding up?

Julia- alright, I mean the best I can be

Moon- *sighs* I'm always here, I hope you know that. just try to be positive and things will get better!

Julia- I do, I appreciate it. really, I do.

Moon- have you um spoken to Robby? you know since everything that happened *cuts off*

Julia- I haven't. he hasn't answered any of my calls, please let's drop it.

she nodded as we walked towards the stairs since we needed to get to our class, but I stopped, all I could picture was Robby's face and Miguel laying on the stairs.

Moon- hey, you okay?

Julia- yeah um I'll be right back, head up without me.

she nodded as I walked away from her, I sped walked to the bathroom as I went into a stall. I broke down the second I locked the door; I couldn't do it. I pulled out my phone and sent a text to my yaya letting her know I was leaving school early before I walked out of the bathroom. I didn't even care to go into the office as I just walked out. I headed to my car before I drove straight to the hospital knowing my mom was working and yaya would be there. I arrived and headed straight to Miguel's room, I opened the door and Yaya looked at me. I didn't say anything as I pulled up a chair and sat next to his bed holding his hand. I looked at him when I heard yaya sigh, so I shifted my gaze to her.

Yaya- Hablé con tu mamá. No le va bien, Jules. después de todo lo que ha pasado, creo que es mejor que rompas con él. (I spoke with your mom. she isn't doing well, jules. after everything that's happened, I think it's best you break up with him.)

Julia- ¿Quieres que me vaya, Robby? No tiene a nadie, Yaya. Lo amo con todo en mí y ¿quieres que lo deje ir? (you want me to leave, Robby? he has no one, yaya. I love him with everything in me and you want me to just let that go?)

Yaya- ¡Mira lo que le hizo a tu hermano! ¡piensa en él, Julia! Sé que lo amas, ¡confía en mí! Pero, necesitas dejarlo ir por su bien y el tuyo. (Look what he did to your brother! think of him, Julia! I know you love him, trust me I do! but, you need to let him go for his sake and yours.)

Julia-¡No quiso hacerlo, tú no estabas allí! ¡No viste su rostro, no lo conoces como yo! (he didn't mean to, you weren't there! You didn't see his face; you don't know him like me!)

Yaya- Jules...

I looked at her as tears started filling my eyes, I looked towards Miguel and my heart clenched. 

Julia- Lo sé... Lo sé.. (I know... I know..)

she sighed and stood walking over to me, she placed a kiss to the top of my head before she left the room closing the door. I looked at Miguel more as I kept my grip on his hand soft.

Julia- *whisper* I'm sorry, Miggy. I'm sorry all of this happened, you didn't deserve any of it. I should have stepped in and tried to stop this; you shouldn't have gotten hurt. I'm sorry for not protecting you, Miggy. I'm sorry for being a bad sister, I'll do better alright? I just need to you wake up, please.

I stayed sitting like that till visiting hours were up, so I gathered my things and headed home. I sat in my bed as I pulled out my phone once again. I pressed his contact once more and waited for the voice message to speak, his voice rang through it.

sup. this is Robby, uh don't know why you are leaving a message like a dumbass, but I probably will call you back if I think it's important. if not, sucks to suck. peace out.

i waited till I heard the buzz noise before I started to leave my message, I couldn't get through it without starting to sob. my heart broke every time I heard his voice over the phone. Once I wrapped that up, I ended up plugging headphones in and listening to old voicemails he had sent me and read our messages, I cried myself to sleep doing this just like I always do. but what I wasn't expecting was to be woken up the next morning and being told Miguel woke up. I got myself dressed fast and drove myself right over, I ran into his room to see him talking to mom. she looked at me with a smile as I walked over to the bed, Miguel's eyes traveled over to me as I looked at my mom. she took the hint and left the room so that we were alone.

Julia- how are you feeling, Miggy?

Miguel- like I was hit with a bus.

I could tell by his tone that he still wasn't happy with me, I understood that. I looked around the room and sighed before looking back at him. he was still looking at me.

Julia- I'm sorry, Miguel. I'm really really sorry, I shouldn't have acted the way I did towards you. I *cuts off*

Miguel- don't be sorry. I was being a totally ass to you and that was my fault. 

Julia- *chuckles* you were a total ass, but I wasn't much better.

he didn't say anything as he looked around the room before at me once more, he was about to say something when mom came back in causing him not to. I sat by his bed the whole day as I tried to fill him in with as much stuff as possible. later in the day, the doctor actually took off all the metal that was on his face along with the neck brace. he was sitting up as the doctor was checking on him, making sure he was recovering okay which he was. But during the checkup, the doctor was trying to see if he could move his feet, but he couldn't. the doctor ended up pulling mom out into the hall and I watched as he said something to her which made her start crying. I looked back at Miguel who was already starting to cry as he looked at his feet. I quickly moved to sit on the bed next to him and gentle hug him as he started to cry. I knew what the news was going to be, my little brother was paralyzed. was it my fault? could I have prevented it?

hey Robby, it's Jules again. um this is probably over the 100th message I have left and I'm sorry for that. I miss you, I'm worried because I don't know where you are. please I just need to know if your safe and if you're okay, I just need to know. I'm not mad at you, I won't ever be mad at you. please, call me back Robby. or meet me somewhere, I just need to make sure you are okay. I love you. I'll always love you, no matter what.