Mágoa | SB19 Josh [SB19 Series #4]

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Grace's POV

"Did you bring your car?" Josh asked me as soon as we were out of the building.

I just stared at him. He stared back at me.

I could not concentrate. He was still holding my hand.

Lord, huhuhu. Thank you.

"Grace?" Josh asked, slightly squeezing my hand.

I blinked fast. What? Who am I? Am I in heaven? Ems.

"Uh..." I trailed off. Car, right. Josh asked if I brought my car. I shook my head. "No...I d-didn't."

Josh nodded. He pulled me towards the taxis and hailed one, all while still holding my hand. He opened the taxi door and gestured for me to get in first.

I did. Awkwardly. With my hand still tucked in his.

We didn't talk during the taxi ride towards Zion Towers. We didn't talk while riding the elevator. The silence was excruciating.

He still did not let go of my hand.

We had reached my condo and Josh punched in my door number code. We entered the condo and went straight towards the living room.

Still holding hands.

Ror.

"Josh-" I started to say, but he cut me off.

"I miss you, Grace," Josh blurted out, staring deeply into my eyes.

I wanted to melt under his gaze. I could feel the intensity. I could feel it searing into my soul. I bit my lip, trying hard to contain my feelings. I tried so hard to keep myself from screaming. I might go insane.

Goodness gracious!

"The past months I've been going crazy trying to reach you. I miss you terribly. All I ever wanted was to see you, all I ever wanted was to talk to you. I wanted to explain to you that I was with Jillian that night and-"

"Josh, please," I told him, finally letting go of his hand and holding it up to stop him. I wanted to say something first.

"Please, Grace. Let me explain first," Josh said desperately.

Sigh. All right.

"Fine," I conceded.

Josh took a very deep breath. He held both my hands in his and stared.

My heart thudded loudly in my chest.

"I'm sorry," he apologized. It took sheer willpower not to break eye contact with him right now. Josh cleared his throat and continued. "I'm sorry if I hurt you that night. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel that we had something going on and didn't clarify to you on where our relationship stands. I'm sorry for making you feel bad. I'm sorry for everything, Grace."

Josh scooched forward and kissed my forehead. I could only stare at him. "I've realized these past few months that I could not bear to be apart from you."

Ayan na. Mama! Huhuhu.

"I know I said that I will never be in a relationship. I know I said that love was for losers. Well, this is me telling you that I'm a loser. Because I'm terribly in love with you."

My tears fell. Homaygad. He said it. He just said it. Josh Cullen Santos- the ever elusive man who claims that he will never fall in love, just admitted that he loves me.

MAMA!!!

"Kinakain ko na lahat ng sinasabi ko. I love you. I love you enough not to annul our marriage. I love you enough to stay married to you. I love you enough to spend forever with you."