Mágoa | SB19 Josh [SB19 Series #4]

16

April 2026
Grace's POV

Josh and I had been inseparable ever since he declared that he was courting me. Although our set up had been far from the usual boy meets girl, boy declares feelings for girl, becomes girlfriend and boyfriend, then gets married- since ours were get married first before becoming boyfriend and girlfriend, so far, it had been working well for us.

Our love story was unusual. Much like the both of us who first started with unusual ideas about love and marriage. I doubt Josh would start noticing me if we started with the usual meet ups. Josh was allergic to love.

Except now. He loves me to bits.

I can't fathom how sweet Josh had become. From the snarky guy who wanted nothing to do with me, who pretty much told me to go to the annulment lawyer alone, to the caring man who wanted to build his future with me -it all felt so surreal.

Simon told me that he loved me. Yuki said the same thing. And they both broke my heart. Josh told me he loves me, which got me scared, because, what if he does the same thing?

I love Josh. But there's a tiny part of me that is scared to trust him fully.

He tries so hard to prove to me that he's different from the others. I just need to learn how to trust again.

Josh was busy with SB19, preparing for their comeback, so he had little time to spend with me during the evenings. Often times, I would stay at The Zone to watch them practice. Sometimes, I would spend it at home, catching up on work, thinking of new games to develop. Sometimes, I would ask Josh for new game ideas, something to remind me of him. SB19 were fan of mobile games, even Stell, though he's the least avid game member, and I want them to play a game that I've developed.

Josh had given me ideas, but so far, none of it spoke to me. There was no nudge in my heart to develop the game yet.

Maybe I need more inspiration.

It was getting a little lonely, what with Josh being busy and all. I remembered Josh asking Jillian for help in getting a pet. It did seem a little tempting. Vector, Josh's "pet" floor vacuum, was not helping much in easing my loneliness.

A cat does sound nice. It would keep me company whenever Josh's out.

Maybe I should tell Jillian about it.

Jillian, Mhai, Doc Gab and I became close friends after Josh introduced me to them. Doc Gab immediately added me to their group chat and I was welcomed warmly by Jillian and Mhai. It was nice to have other people to talk to, especially women who have struggles with their boyfriends and husbands being worldwide famous.

The three women could relate to my struggles of being linked to a member of SB19. A lot of my friends had been messaging me ever since they saw pictures of Josh and me on our social media accounts. Even my brothers were surprised when they found out that Josh- the one and only charismatic member of SB19 was seen on dates with their lovely sister.