this book was meant to be me just giving up on writing but yk I had to turn it into a book lmao
!TW!//SH/ED/ABUSE/ANXIETY/OVERTHINKING/PANIC ATTACKS/SELF HATRED/SWEARING/VOMITING/SUICIDAL THOUGHTS//
THERE WON'T BE A WARNING AT THE TOP OF EACH PAGE...
song of this chapter : good looking - suki waterhouse
Wilburs pov :
its now monday, yesterday, I found out that tommy cuts himself, I couldnt really talk about it and help, because there was just to much happening, it was overwhelming I just wanted to step back and look at everything thats happening like stepping back from a painting and just looking at everything, seeing what needs to be done, and seeing what you need to do.
I 'wake' up and go down stairs and meet phil and techno,
"sooo! what're we doing todayyy?"
"uhh we could got to alton towers, they got some cool fucking rides there." philza suggests.
"yoo yeah that sounds amazing." techno adds
"that sound cool!" then tommy comes down,
"tommy! How does going to alton towers sound!?" I ask
"YOO yes!" the child says.
"ok its decided we should go around 6:00 though" Phil says
"yeah ok!" I reply
"should we just get the day pass then?" techno says
"yeah." phil replys.
6:00 Pm cause im to lazy to write all that.
we all got in the car and start heading to the amusement park, we get there and it a bit dark outside, dark enough that the street light are on and all the rides are lit up.
"Woah!" tommy says looking at the light that shine from the rides as we walk to get the little braclet things.
"this is going to be so fucking cool!" tommy says, I giggle.
"I know right mate!" phil adds. We get to the front desk and buy the day passes and me and phil get our bracelets on, then techno, tommy made sure to not roll his sleeve to far up for obvious reasons. Once we all have our bracelets on we go all walk to the area where the rides are at. There were big scary rides , and rides that were less scary , and then just the fun ones. We decided to go on a big scary one first and we tried to get in the same cart and we were successful with it, we go it, phil and techno in the front, me and tommy in the back, the cart only held 4 people. The ride started, it hurt at the start since it goes a bit and then quickly stops, we start going up and tommy grabs my hand like he was going to die, or like fly out the cart, I laugh a bit, and it gets to the top and we start quickly turning and then the climax comes, we drop and tommy is basically leaning for dear life on me as we drop and then we turn, basically side ways and then it goes up again and drop and then goes side ways again and then a small drop, tommy leans off of me as we turn to the end, and like the start it stops abruptly and we go forward and then back this hurt my ass so much. We get of the ride all of us were laughing at tommys reaction like he just been traumatized.
"shittt." tommy says, we laugh as we walk down the ramp.
"that was so fun." techno says
"agreed" me and phil say in unison.
"you guys want to go on the swings now?" phil asks
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"uh.." tommy says gulping, phil chuckles
"YES LETS GO THERE GONNA BE SO FUN I ALREADY KNOW IT!" I say not loud though just in a excited tone,
"okay cmon before we have to wait very long!" techno says running towards, we follow.
"WHYYYY!" tommy complains
"you will have fun this one isnt that scary!" I tell him.
"I heard that at least 3 people have died falling out the seats." techno says
"oh-.. Thanks that really helped." tommy replys looking like he was gonna shit himself, I laugh. Eventually we go in our seats, they were rows of 2 so I sat beside techno (in seperate seats!) and phil and tommy behind us. The swings started rising off the ground and tommy screams
"AHHHHHH!" We die of laughter
"TOMMMMMY AHHHHHHHHHHHH" techno screams, I find technos scream so funny so im dying. we started swinging high up in the air, we were on a slant not exactly sideways. It was so pretty, the lights, the lights of the other rides. We were swinging for a bit and then we started lowering,
"that was so fun!" tommy says,
"Told yah!" I reply to tommy.
Tommys pov : (short)
I was really having a good time. The way the lights shined, it was mostly teens/couples at this time, but that was fine.
Wil's pov :
after the swings we decide to split up for a bit, me and tommy, techno and philza. me and tommy decide to go on a ferris wheel cause why not, embrace the view while you get the chance! We finally get on after waiting a bit in line, watching couples go on, whilst im going on with a little gremlin child, I felt lonley haha!
"so tom how are yahhhhh?" I ask trying to create small talk... I'm very bad at small talk.
"you know, the usual." he says staring out over the amusement park.
"usual hm." I reply, the usual-. . .
"what about you wil?"
"im pretty good actually."
"ah thats good!" tommy replies.
"its really pretty up here innit?" tommy says
"mhm" I reply, tommy sighs
"something on your mind?"
"just what happens after. What do I do with myself after this week? Do I just go back to streaming, and laying around all day, this is the most i've gone out in like weeks. . ." tommy replies, we sat in a comfy silence
"tommy you know, you have lots of people who you can hang out with! Tubbo, ranboo's in the uk for a bit, me, jack , george, phil."
"I dont want to bother them." He adds.
"Im sure they wouldn't mind."
"mhm." tommy mutters. We hop of the ride and for the rest of the time, all I can think about is what does happen after this, I mean, I wont be able to be there for tommy, what if he needs my help and I cant? I mean he is in brighton not to far, but its not the same as being in the same house.
When they get back to the air bnb/house.CAUSE IM LAZY.
we were all pretty tired by time we got back so we decided to quickly make something to eat, we 'all' decided on grilled cheese cause it was so quick and easy to make. After eating they all went to bed.
THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG BOOK LIKE 20 OR MORE CHAPTERS... (sarcastic) UPDATE -like 4 months later- I WASN'T BEING SARCASTIC....
