SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER : alien blues -vundabar OR A SAD, SAD SONG!
Proof read -january 4th (not that much though because I go tired half way through)
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once we arrive home I say i'm going to the bathroom as an excuse. I run up to the bathroom, if I throw up it would be useless, I already digested that shit. I grab my razor and roll my sleeves, cutting away.
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I get stopped by someone grabbing the razor out my hands. what the fuck. I look up, wilbur...
"I came up 'cause I thought you were going to purge..." He says, starting to frantically look through my drawers, he finds the razors. He cant find the pills so I'm not worried about that since I hid them super good. He takes all the razors, I mean all of them, and throws them in the loo. (REMEMBER WHEN HE THROWS HIS RAZOR FOR SHAVING IN THE LOO IN THAT ONE UH FUNDY VLOG THINGY?!)
w-what... My one thing I had left of my friend... I-it's g-gone. Forever...
"w-why the fuck did you d-do that... t-those were s-special to m-me!" I say, I start crying, I control my breathing, my breathing pattern is very bad, but I can still talk, and im not having a full on panic attack.
"I'm proving a point. Without them you cant harm yourself."
I get up off the floor, my knees wobbly.
"you fucking prick." I say pushing past him
"excuse me?" He says, he heard me.
"you heard me you stupid fucking prick." I don't care if I'm becoming someone I despised to be. He ruined the one thing I had, of my only real best friend.
"you'll thank me one day." No I fucking wont.
"You fucking piece of shit Wil. Every time, You make whats mine, about YOU. you make what's completely mine! You take it away from me. You strip it, and you make it about YOU!" I yell sobbing. Well now I'm bawling.
"tommy- I-" Wilbur says, but I cut him off not wanting to hear shit from him.
"you destroyed them to prove a point! TO PROVE ONE OF YOUR POINTS!" I yell fuming but still bawling my eyes and heart out.
"YOUR BEING NAIVE TOMMY!" He yells, fuck off.
"THATS IT, ISN'T IT? IM YOUR 'NAIVE' LITTLE 'FRIEND' WHOS SAD LITTLE LIFE MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF! WELL... YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY SPOT ON THERE! I HAVEN'T GOT A CLUE ABOUT ANYTHING!" I yell, my voice breaks near the end due to emotion, phil and techno come running up the stairs. They try asking whats happening, but get cut off,
"YOU HAVE SOLIDLY PROVEN THAT EVERYONE & EVERYTHING IS SHIT. WELL DONE! GOLD STAR!" I yell,
why?
am I
an idiot? Im pushing the only person who cares, away. But it doesn't stop here.
"I'VE GIVEN SO MUCH, WHEN WILL IT BE ENOUGH?!" Ive given everything I fucking can, my health, my hapenis (sorry I have terrible humour) , everything, what else could he want?!
YOU ARE READING
I give up. |Tommyinnit angst|
Fanfictionthis book was meant to be me just giving up on writing but yk I had to turn it into a book lmao !TW!//SH/ED/ABUSE/ANXIETY/OVERTHINKING/PANIC ATTACKS/SELF HATRED/SWEARING/VOMITING/SUICIDAL THOUGHTS// THERE WON'T BE A WARNING AT THE TOP OF EACH PAGE...
