SONG OF THIS CHAPTER : 4mortant save one of your saddest songs for next chapter.
not proof read :(((
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'would be daft of me to cry' I love, perfume - lovejoy
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I open my eyes, trying to adjust to the sudden light. I feel like shit, I was so happy yesterday, but it's all coming back, it's really overwhelming... I check the time on my phone.
1pm?! fuck... Today needs to be as fun and memorable as it can be. I hope out of bed throwing on a white and red t-shirt, classic, I put a white long sleeve underneath, paired with some brown cargo pants. (is it just me or on the cover picture, he looks like hes not wearing pants... anyway.) I go to the bathroom, stopping and looking at myself in the mirror, cant stand my reflection, damn no one gets it... (4mortant yes copyright isnt pog.) Should I be kind and remind that im weak? So I fall more behind every week? I cry from my eyes to my feet. (hes not actually crying)I'm so god damn pathetic. I sigh and start walking down stairs, I stop in my tracks when I hear.
"we just need to tell him now." I hear phil say, techno and I hear wilbur and phil agreeing. Maybe it's about me.
Tell me about what? Are they going to drop me today? Today was supposed to be good. If they drop me today. At least I wont have to worry about feeling bad for leaving them when I kms tomorrow, right? I laugh, tears falling down my face, I start crying so hard that my stomach aches, silly. Silly thought. Silly me. Selfish. Nothing is ever about me. I wipe my tears, it feels daft to cry right now. I walk downstairs fully this time.
"hey!" I reply
"hello!" the say in almost perfect unison.
"what're we doing today?!" I ask.
"well we were planning on going to a trampoline park!" they say excitedly.
technos pov :
"we just need to tell him now" phil says, we planned out what we were going to do today so we just needed to tell tommy.
Tommys pov :
"what time" I ask,
"in 1 hour." techno says.
1 hour later (cause yeah.)
we FINALLY arive at this trampoline park. We enter the place, and
"woahhh, its empty?" I say
"yea! We rented it." phil says, ah ok.
later :
"LETS RACE, WITH THE ROCK WALL! FIRST ONE TO GET UP, WINS A FIVER!" I say sprinting to the rock wall, theres 4 different ones there all impossible.
Techno is barely off the ground, by time me and wil are half way up, phil had given up, hes old so its ok. We dont want him breaking his back now do we!? I end up winning, I was a bit ahead wilbur by like 1 rock... But I could reach the buzzer with my arm. I fall back into the foam pit closing my eyes, the 1 second of falling felt freeing.
"AAAAAA" I yell trying to move out the way since wilbur was jumping down, phil is laughing but still 'worried' that I would get crushed though he knew I would get out the way in time.I moved out the way barely,wilbur falls beside me laughing, I climb out the pit dramatically, techno only had to step down, to be fair though, his did go like non-gravity like, you know?
later cause I suck at writing. (fluff more specifically)
"what now?" I ask, as we get in the car.
"its 5 pm. Can we go out to eat phil?" techno asks, I feel sick, I can't do anything they have to sit there watching me eat like a pig, if I dont eat they'll worry, it's fine I was going to cut anyways. I let out all my bottled up air, and sigh.
"sure! Where do you guys want to go?"
" *JUST NAME ANY RESTAURANT* " Techno suggests, wilbur and phil agree, I just add a sure so they dont think, that I dont want to go there.
When they arrive at le restaurant :
we get seated and the waitress asks what drink we want, I just say water is fine.
I order soup, since I find it easier to eat, because it's almost like drinking.
whilst their waiting for the bill
"lads, when we get back, let's just do a lot of fun shit, I don't know what but we have to make today super fun since we only have tomorrow and today" Phil says (THEY ; wilbur and tommy since techno is staying with phil and phil lives somewhat close by. THEY LEAVE MONDAY MORNING.)
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I HOPE YALL ENJOY BE PREPARED FOR ANGST. THIS BOOK IS COMING TO A END. IT HAS HONESTLY BEEN A AMAZING TIME WRITING THIS AND I THINK IM GOING TO MAKE MORE BOOKS I HAVE AN IDEA AND ILL SHARE IT AT THE END OF THE BOOK AND TELL ME IF ITS A GOOD IDEA OK? :D ANYWAY STAY SLAYING #GIRLBOSS #GIRLYPOP #GASLIGHT #POG
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Fanfictionthis book was meant to be me just giving up on writing but yk I had to turn it into a book lmao !TW!//SH/ED/ABUSE/ANXIETY/OVERTHINKING/PANIC ATTACKS/SELF HATRED/SWEARING/VOMITING/SUICIDAL THOUGHTS// THERE WON'T BE A WARNING AT THE TOP OF EACH PAGE...
