I give up. |Tommyinnit angst|

I give up.

Tw! bad ending you can probably guess what I mean- (ALSO NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE A BIT LONG AND THIS ONE TOO! ENJOY) BTW THIS IS THE ORIGINAL ENDING!

USE YOUR SADDEST SONG OKAY??? if you really want a song and u dont know, fourth of july always works? cry - cigarettes after sex also works? IDK JUST A VERY SAD SAD SONG CAUSE IT MAKES IT MORE EMOTIONAL!

ALSO LOTS OF QUOTES FROM SONGS MOSTLY I CAN GIVE THE NAMES IF YOU WANT JUST ASK. ALSO IF I PUBLISH MORE BOOKS AND DONT GIVE UP ON WRITING THEN YOU MIGHT SEE THEM IN OTHER STORIES CAUSE THEYRE GOOD MMM :]

NOT PROOF READ CAUSE I JUST WANTED TO FINISH THIS BOOK :D (FROM HERE TO THE VERY LAST CHAPTER NONE OF THEM ARE PROOF READ!)

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 I start with techno.

Dear Technoblade, gosh...... I must say, I really looked up to you, because you and Wilbur were like my brothers, that I never had. I don't have much to say, besides it wasn't your fault.  I really hope you can keep up with your health. I am so sorry, I just couldn't do it anymore, I'm to weak to deal with all this pain, and you guys dont deserve to be brought down by my problems. Technoblade, I hope you have a good life. - Tom Simons or more known as TommyInnit/Big T. <3

then phil.

Dear Philza, I'm really glad I got to spend time with you. I saw you as more of a 'father figure'. I have no clue what to say. . . So i'll just add everything I want to say in the note to everyone. Phil this was not your fault, I couldn't take all this pain, no one could of helped me ; not you, not wil, not techno. Not anyone. This was how it was always going to be.  - Tom Simons a.k.a TommyInnit/Big T/Big cums. <3

then wil... His was the hardest.

Ayup Wilbur, gosh this is going to be hard to write. . . I know we had an argument, but that isn't why I decided to end it. This is not your fault, don't say some stupid shit like 'I could of helped you' you couldn't have :) this is how it is meant to be. Please don't go down the same rabbit hole I went down. No matter what try to keep up with your health, if you can't just. . . Don't do the same shit I did, if you ever feel like, 'harming' yourself, or ending it or anything! Please, go to Phil or anyone! I know how hard it is, I wish I could've spoken to someone, but it got very bad, by the time I could speak to someone, it got to the point that there was no fixing it. I still can't believe that this was my life, it was perfect. Well almost, also if you want you can take my hoodie, the one I always wear. If you dont know what one its red and white and it says 'TommyInnit' in white. Please give something of mine to tubbo like a hoodie or something, I couldn't make him a letter, since I wanted to tell him over the phone. You were like a brother to me and so was Techno. Also I'm sorry I couldnt keep my promise about the 'always and forever' you might not remember, but it wasn't to long ago. But at that time I was really serious about it. -Tom Simons, Mostly know as TommyInnit or Big T or Big cums <3

Dear everyone, (phil, techno, wilbur.)

I would just like to say what the worst part is. I NEVER GO TO HAVE A WIFE AND KIDS. :( very sad about that.

If your wondering 'why?' The main reason is my dad. He is very abusive. I wrote a letter for him, give it to him only once hes in jail, try to get him jail time Please? But , also everything was overwhelming, so. yeh. (YEH)

you know! someone once said... 'Legacy, is all you leave behind in this world.' I hope I leave behind a good one. Listen... Ive tried to get help, i've tried all these things, it dosen't work. (i just got this from his recent lore stream lmao.)

I was hoping it would get better when I was with you guys, it had all the right pieces, but I just couldnt put them together. Because I knew it could be so much better. But oh well?