Painful Thoughts And Memories

Unclear

I can't breath everything hurts so bad all I see are words floating around me I can't read them though. Why is everything so unclear and so hard? It's like they made this world to watch us suffer, we never really accomplish anything it just seems like that at the time, but there is always a catch to everything we do and every step we take. What can I do to get out of this spider web of sorrow? This is so very hard to think of all these thoughts rushing through my head at a million miles an hour all I can see are flashes. Everyone tells me to step back and enjoy life, how can I do that knowing all of this? Have you ever felt like you know the big secret to life but if you tell people they'll all think your crazy? That's me I can't deal with this much longer it hurts to open my eyes. My vision is fuzzy and the room is spinning, I start to lose balance while I'm sitting down. Please take this away from me I don't want this secret anymore I just want things to be clear and be free of my curse please help me!