Painful Thoughts And Memories

Me.

I hate myself , there's no words to describe the disgust I have in myself .
I'm fat, my thighs are huge I have no ass, my boobs are too big I have nothing going for me to seal the deal.
I'm too sensitive, no one sees my pain no one sees how hard I try to be something I'm not.
I have a double chin, stretch marks, and scars everywhere.
I cry too much, I think too much, I annoy people for no reason, I'm difficult to deal with.
I hate making eye contact, my eyes are too big, i get nervous around a lot of people.
I can't deal with it for any longer I'm going to explode.
I need someone but I don't want anyone, I can't let people see me like this.
I hide and hide and nothing ever works.. I should give up.
Shouldn't I?