Painful Thoughts And Memories

pain

No one really knows pain until the one you love is ripped from your grip. Until the one you love slips through your fingers like sand. It's all pain that's unbearable, that no one wants to go through, that no one should go through. It always seem like the people who deserve to be happy are never happy. Am I the only one who has noticed that? God I hope not if so then I'm even more alone than I thought. Everything feels so wrong without him, please give me a reason to be? Everything is shattering right before my eyes and no one else sees it but me, Why just me? I can't do this alone for much longer I need my support I need the foundation that holds up the house that is my life. I really can't just deal with it for much longer I am shattering and dying with every step I take. I want everything to go back no I need everything to go back. I need the Jack to my Sally, I need life to get better I don't know what I am doing trying to continue like nothing is wrong with me. I want to break into tiny pieces so I can stop forcing myself to feel better enough to function in society, I'm tired of pretending not to care when I am dying inside and rotting from my core. I feel so bitter every day that passes. Please someone save me?