Goodbye, it's Okay

Chapter Nineteen: Insatiable

Chapter Nineteen

FINNEGAN DELA TORE

I can feel his lips on my neck and the sensation of his tongue going down my throat.

I was too dizzy, too confused, too scared to react. Next thing I knew, I can already feel his right arm trying to unzip my pants while his left hand was hardly pressed to my chest so that I could be pinned down on the wall. His 6 ft. stature was not a help to my height and I don't have the energy left to push him away.

I was closing my eyes so hard I wish I could just poof like a smoke. Kaninang umaga, ibang iba ang plano kong mangyari sa araw na ito, wholesome. Kung hindi lang kami nagkasagutan ni Isagani ay sana hindi ko naisip na sumama pa dito.

And here goes away my virginity. I thought as I was having a difficulty trying to look at his face infront of me. Masyado akong lasing, masyado akong nahihilo para magfocus sa mga mata nya.

EARLIER THIS MORNING, I decided to wake up at 4AM. I decided to cook for our breakfast kahit na itlog lang at ramen ang alam kong lutuin. I tried opening the refrigerator para magcheck pa ng pwedeng idagdag sa lulutuin ko.

Tocino seems easy.

I grabbed that out from the chiller and placed it in the sink to be thawed out. Pagkatapos non ay kumuha na ako ng mangkok para sa paghahaluan ko ng itlog since ang pinakamadali kong lutuing itlog ay scrambled eggs. I was feeling nervous and at the same time shy. Yung last time kasi na ginawan ko siya ng ganito ay yung club sandwich na sa loob pa ng kwarto ko ginawa para hindi nyam akita.

Naging maingat ako sa pagluluto at paggagalaw sa kusina kasi malapit lang ang kwarto nya dito at ayokong magising sya sa ingay ko.

My heart was uneasy but at the same time singing with glee.

Pagkatapos ko magluto ay ihinanda ko na ang pingan at mga cutlerys sa lamesa. Kinukuha ko na ang juice mula sa refrigerator nang narinig kong nagbukas ang pintuan ng kwarto ni Isagani. Pero imbes na siya yung magulat sa ginawa ko ay ako ang halos mabitawan ang hawak kong pitsel ng juice.

Isagani was again only wearing his underwear. His eyes were closed and he were still rubbing them with his one hand while his other hand was busy rubbing his abs. I swear to God, Isagani's body is shaped to perfection. I don't know how many times do I have to describe how pronounced his muscles are but this time kasi yung nangsurprise sa akin ay may isa pang muscle down there na sobrang pronounced. I get it, kagigising lang nya but still.

I felt my face flush red. What the hell was I thinking? Just to be clear, room mate mo na lang si Isagani ngayon. I gathered up all the air I can collect inside my lungs then cleared my throat as I exhaled. By doing so, Isagani opened his eyes looking alarmed pero nanlaki na lang ang mga ito nang narealize nyang ako yung nasa harap nya.

"Oh my Gosh Finnegan," sambit nya. "Muntikan na akong atakihin sa puso."

I tried to act normal and put the pitcher down on the table. "Sorry for alarming you pero magdamit ka na kaya para makakain na tayo ng breakfast?"

He suddenly looked down and realized how hard little Isagani is. He immediately covered it with his palms and smiled at me apologetically.

"Magc-cr muna ako actually since kagigising ko lang and I didn't expect you to be out here this early in the morning."

I again went on to acting like nothing's big deal pero I can still feel how hot the air I'm breathing in. I nonchalantly nodded my head in agreement pero he still went out from his room without putting on anything.