To Love Or Not To Love

Chapter 38

ZIMBINI

Being a housegirlfriend, has been nothing short of amazing. The only time I get bored is when I'm left with nothing to do. When the kids have gone to school and when the boyfriend has gone to work, I struggle finding activities to do.

When I get bored to the point of no return, I google about pregnancy and how it varies between women. Some of the things I discovered there are horrifying and now I understand why doctor's don't recommend women to believe everything they read online.

I'm 6 months and three weeks pregnant and I honestly can't wait to give birth already. I've been eating ice cubes like crazy and that is because it is the only thing I'm craving for. My gynecologist advised me to stop eating it or maybe try and reduce the amount I consume, but it really is hard to quit once you're in deep.

I am currently doing some ironing. Yes...this is what my life has come to now. A certified wife who has not even been paid dowry for.  The time is around eleven a.m and I still have to pack the clothes in my wardrobe. I am a neat freak yes, but when it comes to packing my clothes!? That department is wack shame...I can't even take care of it.

I am missing my friend, Yanda...this life is the kind of life she'd be enjoying. I love my friend but she's a real lazy bone and if it were up to her, she'd have helpers all around the house. She would just be sitting on the couch binge-watching on a series.

I'm a domesticated person by nature...well I don't know if it's by nature or what, but I used to help out around the house a lot growing up. This stuck on me as I got used to waking up early in the morning so I can get things done quickly. This is why I make sure to make breakfast and lunch boxes for everyone before they leave.

I don't want to brag or anything but...I really am wife material. Let me just get back to work before I start acting like a narcissist.

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The kids just got back from school. Well Mthoko got here about an hour or two hours ago...and Thandi just got dropped by her transport a few minutes ago. She's telling me about her day at school and man...this child can talk for days I tell you!!

"She also said that I have a head shaped like a pear." She's talking about her friend Kate who, apparently said that her head is pear-shaped. I say apparently because I know my little sister, she is a drama queen and I don't think that's what Kate said exactly. I never know how to deal with these conversations...because how do I respond to such!?

"Oh baby...how can Kate say such to you!? Are you guys not friends?" I ask knowing very well that she's making a big deal out of nothing. This pregnancy has made me unable to control my feelings, I have a real short temper and it's unfortunate that Thandi has been on the recieving end for most of it.

I am trying to make it up to her as much as I can and I've planned an outing for us this weekend. I don't want her or Mtho to ever feel neglected in any way when or before the baby gets here. They are still my babies after all but they should never hear me say that. She goes on telling me about how she didn't enjoy her day and that she wishes Kate was in a different class than her.

We head downstairs to prepare food for dinner and a few mintues later, Nkanyezi joins us. "Hi baby, and hello Ms Thandi." He says after we share a brief kiss. He calls her miss because like I said before...she is a drama queen.

I really love how both Mthoko and Thandi have gotten used to to having Nyezi around.  I thought it would be a struggle having to adjust living with someone else besides the three of us.

They have made him a father figure in their lives and he has also in return, been treating them like his own. I never thought that they would get to have such a person in their lives and I'm glad that they do now.