To Love Or Not To Love

Chapter 27

MNOTHO

Sigh. I'm about to knock off at work and I just can't wait to get some rest. It's been hard getting any sleep since I fought with Yanda. I really regret saying what I said, and the more time passes by, I realize that I have broken any trust she had for me.

I miss her a lot and I've been giving her the space she asked for. I do send her a goodnight and a goodmorning text everday since the altercation...just a little gesture so she knows I'm still here for.

Aaaaah...it's time for me to  head on home now and I'm glad that I can. As I'm packing up my stuff, a call from Sabelo comes through.

"Sawbona Manzini" He says as I answer the phone.

I chuckle at his greeting because he only calls me using my clan name when he's mocking me, "Yeah Sabelo...unjani? (How are you?)"

"I'm good ndoda wena unjani? (...man and how are you?)"
"I'm holding up okay. So what do I owe this pleasure of getting a phone call from you?"
"Oh well you, my dear friend are getting a visit from your friends today. I, Qaphela, Sanele and Nkanyezi will be all up in your space today." He says.

I think that it's a good idea to have people around me. They all know about my 'separation' from Yanda and maybe they are just trying to find ways to be there for me.

"Okay...I'd like that. I just hope everyone will bring an edible item along because I haven't gone grocery shopping in a while."
"Yeah whatever man...I'll let the others know. See you later yeah?" He replies.
"Yeah, see you." I take the last of mg belongings and head on to my car so I can prepare for these gentlemen.

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The time reads half-past six and the guys have arrived. We're all chilling in the living room with some soft background music playing.

"So bro, how have you been holding up?" That would be Sanele, my brother.  He's not much of a talker between us three. Three being I and Qaphela. Qaphela is the most outspoken between us that sometimes you'd just want to put some tape around his mouth. Okay I think I'm getting off topic now.

"I've been better...I'm just trying not to dwell on any negativity." I respond.
"Kodwa nawe bafo, uhlulwa umfazi ngempela?(But bro, are you really going to be defeated by a woman?) Says the stupid Qaphela, who has no filter whatsoever.

"What do you mean Q?" I know what he means but I'm just entertaining him. Q is a very dominant being. He is a very stereotypical being that still believes a man should always take charge. I'm just glad he found a woman who doesn't mind him being the way that he is.

"I mean, you should go straight to her place...knock on her door and when she opens grab her by her neck and kiss the living daylights out of her. And then the rest is history. This nonsense of space doesn't work, next thing she'll move on with another man while you're still respecting her 'wishes' like a fool." Sigh.

In a sense, what he's saying makes sense but then I don't want to disrespect her and ruin any chances of us getting back together. I am just going to go with the flow and let things be.

'Ain't No Sunshine' by Bill Withers plays from the speakers...ugh coincidental much?? I think not!!

"I think you should respect her wishes for now. Let her get her mind in the right space. Remember that this is still fresh and maybe she's still mad. So just relax." Says Sabelo. I can only nod to that.

I trust Sabelo...and only because we make a lot of business decisions together that have proved to work and, he is much more open minded with this love business. His marriage is proof enough that the guy knows what he's talking about.

We continue conversing about a lot of different things and have also eaten some food ordered earlier on. I did say kuthi akuna lutho la kulendlu. (that there's nothing here inside this house.) The conversation then shifts focus to Nkanyezi...he is glowing and it shows that he's in a happy relationship. I'm happy for him to be honest.

"So do you think you're ready for such a big step? Especially because her siblings  are also a part of the package deal?" Sanele asks Nkanyezi after he's told us that he's asked Zimbini to move in with him.

"To be honest, I've been ready for a while, exactly at three months into our relationship. I am sure that she's the one for me and I just love how she is also able to show that she loves me just as much. This pregnancy has just helped me speed up the process." He says with a wide smile on his face. Yeah he's definitely in it for the long run.

"I'm happy for you. So are the kids also okay with it?" Asks Qaphela, for once asking a relevant question.

"Well I'm not too sure about that. She's yet to ask them if it would be okay if we moved in together. They are great kids trust me and so far they haven't shown any dislike towards me. I'm just hoping they agree to it because it would suck if not." He replies.

"Why is that? Will she not move in with you if so?" Sanele fires at him again.

"Yeah dude. She really loves her siblings, they are her children and she'd do anything they want. Even if it meant sacrificing her own happiness for it. That's one thing that makes me admire her even more. It means our kids will have a mother that always puts them first." He grins and chugs on his beer.

Well that is an amazing thing to hear. I'm sensing wedding bells from this guy soon. The conversation then shifts on to politics and I barely participate in that convo because I'm really not into politics. Soon enough the guys leave and Nkanyezi stays behind for a while.

"So have you heard or seen how she's doing?" I ask Nkanyezi without looking at him.
He sighs and says, "I think she's okay but Zim is also worried about her.  She has totally distanced herself from Zim as well."

I sigh as well because this is really stressing.

"What do you think I should do?" I ask Nkanyezi.
"I think you should give her the needed space. Maybe she needs to work on herself for now and then things will be better. They do say that distance makes the heart grow fonder."

I guess that makes sense. We then finish up and then he leaves. Aaah...it was really great having my friends and brothers over. It helped me forget about my loneliness for a while.

A fruitful day it has been and now I'm off to get some much needed rest. Sigh.

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3 months later