To Love Or Not To Love

Chapter 48

ZIYANDA

There's silence as Zim walks down the alter and everybody is looking at her. The only sound heard is 'A Thousand Years' by Christina Perri playing in the backround. It is such a beautiful song that goes well with what these lovebirds share.

You can see how much they love each other by the look in their eyes. They look at each other with such admiration and adoration. Their love is pure and everyone here is blessed to having to witness such a union.

"Welcome loved ones. We are gathered here today to join Zimbini and Nkanyezi in holy matrimony.", the pastor starts off.

My mind wanders off to thoughts of Mnotho and I. I've known him for a while but we have already been through a lot together. Not to mention that he's seen me at my lowest and at my greatest as well. Through everything he's been there for me and not once has he been hesitant on doing something for me.

He has his flaws that's for sure but then again, who doesn't right? I am willing to stick by him until the time comes where the relationship becomes unbearable for us both. But for now I'm willing to wait it out because I truly have fallen in love with him.

"...you may now kiss the bride." That statement snaps me out of my thoughts. Nkanyezi and Zim are in each other's arms as their lips touch. The kiss lasts over a minute as people cheer for them and it brings them out of their bubble.

As the wedding party, we all left with the bride and groom and the family, to take some pictures. They picked a place a bit further for the pictures, I don't get why but then again this is not my day. I look over at Zim and her husband, yes she is a wife now, and they look so happy together.

I wonder if Mnotho and I will ever get to this point...of marriage that is. He has been hinting about it for a while now but I am not ready for such a big commitment. Yes I love him and all but am I ready to take a big step that is so life changing?

I did tell him how I feel though and he has been very understanding as always. How can I not fall in love with him more when he proves to me on a daily that he's in it for the long haul.

Sigh.

I hope one day I get to be as good of a partner to him as he is to me.  Therapy has helped me be more vocal about my feelings and I think that is what has slightly strengthened my relationship. I am grateful to God for giving me such an understanding and loving partner.

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We're all at the reception now and speeches have been made. The guests have also had something to eat and now it is a joyous occasion for everyone. I, on the other hand, have not had a decent meal since I woke and my body can feel it.

I am tired and my stomach hasn't stopped grumbling since I started walking up and down. I am the maid-of-honor after all and my duties require me to always be sharp and alert. I feel arms wrap around me and I gasp a little but soon relax as I bask in HIS scent.

"My love...you've been working all day why don't you relax a little.", he says dropping feathery kisses on my shoulders.

"Hmmm baby stop." I moan slightly as I feel my body getting all worked up. We haven't had sex for a week because of the wedding prepations and my body can feel that it's been deprived of something good.

"Stop what my love?", he nibbles on my earlobe. He knows that's my weak spot and if I don't stop him now, I'll regret it.

"Uh uh baby not now." I release myself from his warm embrace, already missing his body heat.

I turn around and face him and he has this undeniably huge smirk on his face. He enjoys tormenting me and he knows how I get just from his touch alone. Hands in his pocket, he leans over and whispers in my ear, "I can't wait to rip off that dress from your body tonight."

A sharp intake of breath as I feel my nether regions getting drenched, "Mno...", and he's gone just like that.

I swear this man will land me on a hospital bed some day, maybe we'll get featured on that show on TLC, 'Sex Sent Me To The ER'. That would be epic and I'm just glad he doesn't have a fetish for toes or any other weird one's I don't know about.

I on the other hand have been hinting for us to try a little of BDSM because it is something I've always been interested in. Nothing hectic just a little whip lash here and there using a flogger, and maybe some cuffs. Anything to help keep our sex life great and exciting.

He hasn't shut down the idea so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'll have to do a little convincing somehow.(wink wink)

A tap on my shoulder startles me and when I turn around it's none other than the bride herself, my friend. "Hi baby...what's up?" I say to her.

She smiles ever so brightly and says, "I wanted to thank you for helping me with today. You made sure my wedding was a beautiful success and I couldn't ask for anything more."

Her voice is breaking and I can tell she's about to cry so I quickly intervene and say, "Oh my friend. I'd do anything for you and you don't have to thank me at all."

She shakes her head and pulls me in an unexpected hug, "Thank you and I love you, sister." A tear rolls down my cheek as she says this.

She's never called me that and now that she has, it has awoken certain feelings. Feelings of warmth and gratitude, I'm grateful for her friendship. "I love you too. Okay enough with the tears now, go on and enjoy the rest of your night with your husband.", I say removing her arms around  me and pushing her back towards the dancefloor. She laughs but says nithing else as she nods.

She knows I can get super emotional at times and that time is now. I finish off with making sure that everything is going as planned. I sit and eat a plate of chicken and rice. I need something solid and easy to digest because I'm about to do a very exhausting activity.

Twenty minutes later I'm done and already on my feet. Now!? Where is that man of mine? He promised to rip off this dress off of me and I plan on seeing him through it.