butterflies 🦋

i don't think i can

i feel myself falling
out of love with myself
out of love with my passions
my interests and hobbies
my favorite books

how do i stop falling?
i want to stand still again
there's an ache in my heart
growing slowly
killing me inside out

i miss the old me
but i'm sure she hates me now
sure she's angry
and disappointed
and absolutely heartbroken

doesn't she realize i was just like her once?
doesn't she?
i didn't meant to stumble on the wrong path
i didn't mean to trust the wrong people

if i could talk to her now
would she listen?
would she forgive me?
understand?

i'd love her again if she'd let me
but i don't think i can