butterflies 🦋

four years gone

talking over me
like i wasn't there

when i had something to say
but you didn't care

excluding me
from the conversations

making plans
but giving no invitations

every single day
you treat me like garbage

and i just wanna know
if you ever get tired of it

ditching me
and leaving me alone

how could a person
be so cold

first in class
to be accepted

petty you insult me
cause you were jealous

hated the way i look
told me to lose weight

made me run laps
around the community gate

made me present in class
when you knew i was shy

every time leaving your house
i wanted to die

telling me we're friends
but you never text back

tell me what am i supposed
to do with that?

guilted me into
doing your homework

and when i didn't get a thank you
that made my heart hurt

made me believe
you were my real friends

but are friends supposed to
make you wish you were dead?

four years gone
i just wanna move on

but i can't 'cause
that shit still pisses me off