Decisions [BOOK 2 OF BM]

Chapter 11

"Anong balak mo?" Ice asked. I was now in his condo. Kailan ko kasi ng kausap so dito ako dumiretso.

"I don't know. Break up with him maybe." I answered. I should really break up with him dahil magkakaanak na siya. Hindi sila kasal pero magkaanak na sila. Hindi din posible na magpakasal silang dalawa. I have no plans of adding "home wrecker" into my profession. I sighed again.

"Yeah, you should." He said. "And you should do it fast." sabi ni Ice. "But I don't want to break up with him." I said in a small voice.

Ice sighed. "You need to Jordan. The guy is having a kid in nine months!" Ice said. Napanguso ako.

"Nine months pa naman eh.." sabi ko. Ice winced.

"You sound like an 8 year old. Alam kong ayaw mo but Jordan you need to break up with him because he is having a kid. Nakabuntis siya." sabi nito.

I sighed and I got my phone. "What are you doing?" Tanong niya. "Dialling Chance's number." I said.

"Why?" He asked with his forehead creased. "To break up with him." I answered again without looking at him.

Hinablot niya ang phone ko. "Break up with him in person. Breaking up with someone throught phone doesn't count." sabi ni Ice habang umiiling.

"Hindi ko ata kaya eh.." I said. Sumandal ako sa sofa at tumingala. I felt his hand on my shoulder. "Kaya mo yan."

I sighed once again.

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I'm here at coffee shop not far from Ice's condo. He told me to go back to his condo after my talk with Chance. Kahit kailan, napaka chismoso nun.

Nagbukas ang pintuan at pumasok si Chance. He saw me and he went to my table. "Look, I can explain." He said. "Sit." I said.

Umupo naman siya. "Jordan, I'm so-"

"I'm breaking up with you , Chance." sabi ko. He just looked at me then he sighed. "I was expecting that." sabi niya. I just looked at him.

"Jordan, I can explain. Hindi ko sinadya na mabuntis si Luna." sabi nito.

"Chance, kahit hindi mo sinadya ikaw padin ang Tatay. And she's one month pregnant ibig sabihin, bago pa ako umuwi dito, buntis na siya." sabi ko. He just looked at me.

"Sa tingin mo, kung hindi ako bumalik dito hindi ka na maguguluhan sa nararamdaman mo? I can't let you choose between me and Luna. Luna is pregnant at hindi ako sigurado kung mahal mo talaga ako."

"No. I love you." sabi niya. I smiled.

"Sinong mas mahal mo? Ako o si Luna and the baby?" I asked. Naitigilan siya sa tanong ko ag nagyuko ito ng ulo.

I smiled pero hindi umabot hanggang mata. Naiiyak ako pero pinipigalan ko. We are in a public place. Ayoko gumawa ng eksena. "See?" sabi ko. "Don't hurt, Luna. Hurting her physically and emotionally. Makakasama sa baby niyo. Sige, una na ako." sabi ko and I patted his shoulder.

Tumigil ako. "Oh and, you'll be thanking me one day because I broke up with you. Trust me. Enjoy being a father, Chance." sabi ko before smiling. Lumabas na akong coffee shop at pumasok na sa sasakyan ko.

Doon ko binuhos lahat ng luha ko. It hurts. Ang sakit sakit. Why did I let him hurt me again? I am so stupid for letting him into my life again. So stupid.

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