Readers, it's so sad I just missed posting this chapter that too as I was giving multiple updates from my draft folder which I hardly ever do. I might've skipped something unintentionally. You guys commented to post confession.
Have you ever appreciated multiple chapters I'm giving you even being so sick? While I'm on bed rest still my priority is not to keep you all hanging for books you love.
This shows you care just for updates not for writers or their hard work. I would appreciate if you just read the chapter and not leave any comment. I'm not interested in reading fake comments and concern thank you.
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She ran, without knowing where, her feet just moved blindly and her eyes busy to cry, she ran, until she couldn't breathe. She stood in the canopy, she seemed to be in middle of nowhere , it was raining heavily, even the sky seemed to share her sadness, she looked up , looking for a light through this dark sky, looking for a hope through her despair, looking for a sign through this darkness. She screamed in pain, she screamed stirring the sky with her voice, she screamed and her voice was mixed with the thunder. She was alone again, it wasn't supposed to happen like, it it wasn't supposed to end before it started, her first love supposed to be different, it had to be different. She didn't expect to fall in love with the man that she was supposed to marry months ago, she didn't expect to cry, because of him, even in her dreams, she didn't expect to have to live again this moment. She ran again not because of fears but because of love. She sat on her knees, crying her heart out.
-you will keep all your life running, Miss Shehnaaz ?
Shehnaaz closed her, she didn't want to face him, she didn't have force to see his eyes and to see only regrets and rejection. She didn't move, she looked down, hoping that he will leave if she didn't reply, but it didn't happen like what she want.
-you know what, all of this remind me something, the day you escaped from OUR wedding, yes it was our wedding, you were sitting here, crying like today, helpless wanting someone to help you. Last time, you ran because of some reason, but today, why did you run, Shehnaaz ? From what you are running away this time ?
She didn't answer, her words were trapped in her throat, she couldn't tell him her truth, he will rejected her, what was the use to tell everything now.
-you don't know, I guess you don't have a valid reason, like always, impulsive and childish, you keep running, never facing anything. Nothing deserve to fight, not even yourself respect. Talk miss Shehnaaz, why are you here crying ? Tell me, he shouted this time, wanting from her some reaction, but she didn't move.
-I want to you to face me, I want you to face the man that you love, he yelled at her. Shehnaaz froze, how did he know ? She turned back abruptly, in shock. The man that you love, or you pretend to love, he continued ironically, being here, crying, not fighting, Like always, you love drama, I guess nothing serious. You know nothing about love Miss Shehnaaz, nothing, you only see the tip of the iceberg. Love is not about songs, rain or words, you said that love is happiness, caring and missing. Love is caring for the other more when he didn't care about you, craving for her presence when she didn't know that you exist, looking into her eyes when her eyes was looking for someone else, missing her all the time without being able to soothe your pain, when all your thoughts goes to her but her thoughts never reached you, when the empty place in your heart was full with someone presence but without being able to invite her, love is not only happiness, it is about being generous and not selfish. You have no idea about love, when a small wind touch you, you just left the battle, if it's to fight for your ego, you are the first in the starting block, you are ready to accept any stupid challenge but when is the challenge of your life, you quit, just like this. If you really think that nothing deserve to stand for, you will keep running and cursing the world for your bad luck, rejecting all the false to destiny and keep yourself in illusion. You will keep crying after every pain and going under another things to forget.
