𝐄𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐫 || 𝐀 𝐉.𝐉𝐊 𝐒𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐅𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

Sweet sixteen and single child ||16

Sixteen is one of the most beautiful year both in a boy's or a girl's life, but mostly in a girl's, which is the very reason to call sixteenth birthday as 'Sweet Sixteen'.

But y/n's life isn't the perfect one.

Ever since she could process things in her mind, she was feeling alone.

She's the only child in her family.

Well, not really. She had an elder brother whom she couldn't cherish or adore, as he died before her birth. So practically, she's not a single child.

But since he's not by her side, she's a single child.

She was around seven when her parents confessed her about her brother. Jeon Jungkook, it was the name they kept for him.

But she was so little back then, she actually did not grasp how tormenting and deep it is.

But now she does.

She's sixteen now.

She knows the world for sixteen years.

She knows people's acts for sixteen years.

She knows something, but not everything.

That something is enough her to understand that she has no one to relay on.

No one to talk about her dreams,

Likes or dislikes,

Passions.

It simply hurts and dissapointing.

There is a side people don't notice at all.

Single child has a responsibility of everything as much as the oldest has.

When y/n's friends tell her,

"You are so lucky to be the only child in your family..."

Her reply is always a smile.

A smile that covers her tormented soul.

Because no one knows how hard it to be the only child.

They have no permission to do anything.

No permission to dissapoint,

Hangout with friends,

Score low,

Fuck, even die.

Single child always has to try.

For good marks and for a good future.

Y/n has to go through this life, somehow.

She cannot describe how she actually feels.

Sometimes all happy.

Sometimes all sad.

Sometimes horribly stressed.

Sometimes a blend of these all emotions.

At night, there is a one thought that always roaming around her head.

She sits down on the bed and stares at the space straight for many minutes.

"How will my life flow if oppa is here?"

She has many thoughts and dteams about Jungkook.

About his appearance.

About his qualities.

About his achievements.

About his everything.

From the minute she wakes up and till the minute she falls asleep,

She needs Jungkook.

She needs her brother.

By her side, 24×7.

She sometimes wonder, why she wants him badly when she turned sixteen?

Is that her birthday gift?

But no, probably it's because his missing left a wound and space in her heart from the beginning.

By sixteen, it has grown. No one can fill it or cure it. No one.

When she sees the other siblings at her age, sometimes they are caring, sometimes they are fighting, but she feels they are so adorable, well knitted, she feels so jealous.

It's not good, but she feels jealous. Deep down that jealousy, her sad and dissapointed soul is fighting to not to break down.

Jungkook's, her brother's affection is the only thing she asks for.

She sometimes visit Jungkook, she's the only one who visits his tomb now.

"Hey Jungkookiee, how are you...?"

She sits down there and talks with him, releasing the tightness of her heart.

When she feels suffocated, she always does this.

It works for real, may be he's listening to her?

When everyone say her to forget him already, she acts as if she doesn't hear it.

"You are sixteen now, act a bit mature...Jungkook is no more...why you even miss him? You haven't seen him at all..."

But do a single person know how she feels when they say like that?

"Do not say like that, no matter what, he's my brother..."

"Don't make me come out from my imagined world with Kookie...I'm spending my whole day with him, you won't understand..."

"It hurts..."

All these are silent words. Her lost voice.

But when she sits beside Jungkook's tomb, in a evening that sunbeams are drenching her, it feels like home. All safe, no judgements, just calm and peace.

"Jungkookiee...my only friend left me, but I know you are with me. Why is it so hard to spend my sixteenth year, Koo? I have five more months to wake up from this nightmare...then I'll be seventeen, will I feel better then, Koo?"

Single child, but many responsibilities and broken promises? It's unfair.

Sweet Sixteen, bitter experiences but the best year that she spends with Jungkook, the best year he is there for her.

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A/n: This is a chapter that relates with my personal experiences, I feel so relieved when I wrote it.

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