A Promise-Carl Grimes x reader

Guilt

Tears were staining my face and I didn't really know what was going on anymore.

I had decided to just sit in a tent, I broke down like that in front of everyone, people I don't even trust, they all saw a side of me I didn't want to show.

"hey Y/n, I just wanted to check up on you" Carl poked his head in and I just kept staring at the ground, sure I heard his voice and knee it was him but I could answer back all I could think about was the fact Sophia died because of me.

"it's not your fault" he whispered and I should my head "I don't need to hear that right now, I just want to be alone" I huffed and he left.

I heard steps inter the tent again and I put my head down "we're burying Sophia, you want to join?" Daryl asked and I shook my head "I can't, I can't think her name without thinking it was my fault" I cried and he sat beside me, pulling me into a side hug.

"Everyone will be really upset if your not there" Daryl tried go reason and I looked over at him "Carol will be happy" I huffed when I heard feet inter the tent, "I wouldn't say happy necessarily, definitely sad" she mumbled and I looked up wiping my eyes "Y/n I know you didn't want Sophia to die, you still have a pretty bad bullet hole in your side yet you wanted to go look for her" he mumbled hugging me.

I nodded standing up and joining everyone at the burial.

After the burial.

Everyone was so separated, Daryl was with Carol, Glenn was with Maggie, Rick, Shane, and Lori were all talking.

I didn't know where Carl was and frankly I couldn't care, the worst to happen is we find him like Sophia, dead and rotting away.

"Hey Y/n, you ok?" speak of the devil "oh I'm just fine, I just killed my best friend but I'm doing amazing" I said and Carl sat beside me, "Dad and Glenn went to go find Hershel, mom left to find them, Beth went into shock" he caught me up and I turned to him "why do I need to hear about this, there's nothing I can do" I huffed "you can't just stay in this tent everyday, it's not healthy, for you or for anyone, at least join us for dinner" he argued and I got up rolling my eyes "is Lori at least back yet?" I asked and Carl shook his head.

She left like hours ago, it's odd but whatever.

Everyone hit the panic that Lori had been gone for a while so I picked up my jacket when nobody was paying attention and found Daryl.

"Daryl, either you take your bike or I'm taking it!" I demanded and Daryl turned to me "I'm done being a errand boy" he snapped back and I shook my head.

"You would go out there in a heartbeat if it were me, why won't you do it for Lori?" I asked and he shook his head, a car sped off and I realized someone went.

"problem solved, now go away" he grumbled and instead I sat right beside him.

"I said leave" he huffed standing up, instead of letting him walk away u grabbed his hand "I don't want to be alone" I mumbled "I just want to sit in silence, and I know you'd except that, nobody else would" I mumbled and he sat back down with me.

He let me rest my head in him as I dozed off.