A Promise-Carl Grimes x reader

new beginning

A year, give or take, later
Everything was going smoothly, I had gotten up before sunrise to take a pretty long trip. I wrote a note and put it on the Grimes's door before heading out.

I got on my bike and started out.

Once I got in DC I left my bike outside the white House and started to clear the main entrance before heading in, thankfully the rooms were pretty clear, some walkers had swat suits on but I got them down easy.

By this time of day the team was back outside, I ran down into the steps and whistled, I saw them turn and Daryl wave me over, I laughed and got on my bike. I caught up with everyone and we started home.

I got back to Alexandria before everyone, taking my own route, I got back and perfectly avoided Carl to go see my dad.

"Look who came to visit" he huffed and I sat down against the wall laying my head back "shut up, I'm talking," I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

"I went out today, all the way to the white house, I keep thinking about the talk I had with Carl, not just the one yesterday but the one that happened a while ago. He doesn't think I'm a bad person and I don't get it, I've done so may things, I've killed innocent people, not because I wanted to but because I thought I had to, I thought if I didn't kill I would be killed" I looked over at him and he moved, he was beside my on the other side of the cell.

"I'm a monster, he thinks that the old me is still in there, the me who didn't have this thirst for vengeance, he thinks I've changed, he thinks I'm better because I didn't kill you, the truth is I changed the day I killed his mom" I cried and Negan reached through the gate to hit my arm.

"as your father, I get my say. Your not a bad person, sure you've done bad things but the truth is, your just a broken person and I made you like that, it's my fault you'll never be able to love someone and I've realized that, I'm sorry" he apologized and I looked at him "I'm not done, I've messed you up, but what you need to realize is your ready to heal, Carl is what you need to start healing, you could tell that boy you still piss your pants and he would still love you, finding someone who would love you no matter what is hard to find, you found that person for you" he smiled kissing my hand and I smiled wiping my cheek "go get him pumpkin" he smiled and I laughed.

It was dark out, I rounded 5he corner to leave and bumped into Carl, I grabbed his hand and pulled him to my very empty house. "How much did you hear?" I asked and he put his hands up in defense "enough to know we need to talk?" he questioned and I nodded.

It's clear he wanted me to talk first but I didn't know what to say "I don't know what to say?" I questioned and he laughed. He grabbed my hands and I shook my head "I hate sappy, you know I hate sappy" I warned and instead of going sappy he pulled my forward and kissed me.

"no words, just actions" he smiled and I laughed "well now that we are official, I'm going to bed, I'm helped with the bridge rebuild and I need to sleep" I smiled and he kissed me slower this time "goodnight, sleep tight, and don't let the bed bugs bite" he joked leaving and I looked at the bat on the wall.

4 months later.

The bridge rebuild was going well, it was pretty early in the morning so I had time to get ready, Carl and I still haven't told anyone. I took a deep breath to steady myself for the day and I put my hair up and threw my vest on.

"you'd be a great dad" Aaron said to Daryl and I laughed "oh he is, pretty damn good" I laughed and Daryl hit my arm, behind us on of the saviors went for Henry and Daryl went to stop him. He threw saw dust in Daryl's eyes and that's when I stepped in, I got the savior down and raised my gun "hey! Lower the gun now!" Rick yelled and I put the gun away, I spit on the bridge beside his head and walked away.